I'm back and the pain is nearly unbearable...

Hello all. I used to be here as unassuming summer but I lost all my info on that account and my old phone was running badly and my app messed up so I'm here now...hope that is okay...too lost and hurt to worry over it much...

I moved. Finally moved away from the town I was abused in for most of my life. Thank God.

However, my new place of employment nearly ran me into the ground once I'd transferred to my current workplace. Overtime. 6 to 7 day work weeks with nearly all my days off split apart so I had no time to enjoy my life. Man it dragged me down. I felt stupid. Tired. Drained. Controlled. Finally had a big mental breakdown. I had been going non stop for nearly 7 months between my hubby and I partaking in the endlessly stressful search for a home and then when I finally got what I wanted I got taken advantage of.

I missed 3 days of work straight just to have a break and ended up drunk, bawling and going into the worst flashbacks of my life.

I nearly quit my job of almost 7 years due to this. Plus I got news that my father wasn't taking care of himself and in I'll health as well. That was enough to send me over the edge.

Went into work on my 3rd missed day, almost in tears, telling them I couldn't do it any more. They did work with me and now I only work weekends which is a help. But I'm in a LOT of emotional pain. It's nearly constant now.