Help
I don’t know I feel very messed up by saying this. I grew up with a very violent childhood. Now I’m in my twenties and I find myself craving/needing that violence against me again? Like I will actively seek it out in the form of movies tv shows books, about domestic violence and child abuse bc I feel like it fulfills something i need. Idk if it’s about me being feeling like I’m back in that situation and my mind is so messed up now from it that it craves it. I also am terrified that I will seek it out in romantic relationships as well. Please anyone help me and tell me if this is normal reaction to trauma
@Wavescurrent7622
I know it sounds scary and odd but often this behaviour can be normal, because its known to you, its normal because you grew up with it. This is a scary thought and very confusing for sure.
But knowing you are having these kinds of behaviours is actually quite helpful because now you can work on it.
talking about your trauma, emotions/feelings might be helpful.
