I keep it locked
TW// sexual assault/sexual abuse/rape/child abuse/ cults groups/ drugged up
I was adopted as a infant into the church (iykyk) starting when I was maybe around four I was being groomed by two big people in this group (the memories take their time coming back to me.) Starting at this young age they would also drug me and do what they want, id wake up confused and in pain. Very often was all this abuse from these visitors happening, my adoptive parents approved of this happening to me and they knew it was being taken place and sometimes participated in this. Around the world there are many victims of cults, I just want to say if you are seeing this and this sounds familiar please don't hesitate to reach out I know it's hard, the church has had me so f*cked in the head I'm lucky to know my age name and real birthday. I saw a post, one of my favorite people one here opened up and it gave me the confidence to try to do the same. I try not to speak on my abuse and life because people have it worse than me but if you are a victim of a cult again please get some kind of help.❤️ You are never alone and it's also never too late to speak up or out, it's healthy to be and feel heard. I'm sending so much love to all of you, we will be okay!
@crimsonRaspberries1486 Thank you for being so brave and sharing what you've gone through. It can be scary opening up. Please don't feel you have to be silent, we try not to compare. You are welcome and encouraged to use your voice. It is healthy to be seen and heard! Through sharing we let other survivors know they are not alone. Through sharing we raise and spread awareness and give hope to those still in abusive places. I hope that you are now in a safe space and working through your trauma. Sending you light and love ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
I am now living with my adoring wife and actually she had gone through similar trauma so we help each other. We both are on different healing paths and we be sure that we are committing considering how easy it is to shut down. Thank you for your caring response it took a lot of gut to type that out.
@crimsonRaspberries1486 It's so wonderful that you found each other and are helping one another! I am sorry to hear that she's been through similar trauma. I wish you both the best that life has to offer. ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
I think it's incredible how trauma can bring people together, not saying that's our relationship of course but it's another different level of bonding and being there for on another.
@crimsonRaspberries1486 It is a whole other level of bonding and understanding. That's for certain.
@mytwistedsoul hugs soul 💖 I love you 💗
@Tinywhisper11 (hugs back) ❤️ I love you too! Thank you for being such a wonderful you! ❤️
It's a beautiful feeling to bond through pain, it certainly is a different level of understanding of one another
@crimsonRaspberries1486 my brave brave friend 💖 it's not easy to open up is it?!🙁 the cult you were in sounds really bad, I'm so sorry sweetie 😥 you did really well opening up about this here 💖 hugs you tightly 💖 I'm always here for you 💗
My sweet friend you are the one that inspired me to open up but there's still so much I have locked up I think if I said everything that's happened to me everyone would be shaking and crying just like your story baby you are so strong and in a Way you made me stronger hearing your story so thank you dear
@crimsonRaspberries1486 don't worry we can get through all the ups and downs together💖💖
As long as we fight yes, I'll always be here for you!
@crimsonRaspberries1486 you wanna fight!?!?? How about a pillow fight😁
Smacks you softly right on the head with a pillow giggling while doing so
@crimsonRaspberries1486 *stuffs my pillow with bricks* I'm gonna win😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁
Oh so we want to play that game?
Stuffs water balloons full of slime in the pillow case chucking I can at least get you looking like slimer
@crimsonRaspberries1486 😮😮😮😮 but... But.... That's so mean.... Why would you do that!?!?!😮😮😮
Maybe we should just have a water fight😁
Water guns fall into both of our hands what's you next move dear?
@crimsonRaspberries1486 wait a second.. I'm still boiling the water
😲 we are having tea first before the water gun fight, I love that idea, oh how about herbal tea?
@crimsonRaspberries1486 sure we can have tea first😁💖💖 but then I'm filling my water pistols with some more water after I booked it😁 I'm gonna win again😈
@crimsonRaspberries1486 😂😂😂 your banana gun won't protect you from my frozen carrot.. On guard😂😂
Oh yeah, I'm well aquanted with my broccoli guard ha!😂
@crimsonRaspberries1486 😂😂😂😂😂😂 you know I think with our skills we should probably team up, and go throw stuff at people, from the roof top😈😈
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 you know that's pretty sadistic of you, but it has to be soft things we throw because of the momentum and gravity the Earth has some things we cannot throw because we can either cause a casualty or any kind of injury.
@crimsonRaspberries1486 fair point🤔🤔🤔 how about honey, or gravy😈
Well, you see if we do honey we must include Winnie the Pooh for he is the king of honey but both work yes let's just hope our victims get very good showers and are not off to their job or a date or anniversary!
@crimsonRaspberries1486 😂😂😂😂😂
😂😁 instead of dumb dumb want gum gum from a night in the museum, it's po po want hun hun😂😁
@crimsonRaspberries1486 😂😂😂😂😂😂
@crimsonRaspberries1486 I am sorry for pain you have to carry but I am glad you rached out and your courage to offer support to other victims is apriciatable . I admire your struggle and courage . You are one of a few who offer hand to drowning . Wish you happy and truma free life ahead .
Honestly I wouldn't take any of it back, because all those bad things that have happened to me have given me the ability to help others and offer a hand into the light.🩷 It honestly saddens me that there aren't more out there trying to use their voice, but I understand, it can be very dangerous even for me.💓
Thank you for your lovely message you made me smile🌹
Recently in my country a major win came after a guy who was repeatedly r-ped went to supreme court for justice. He had autism since birth and his parents took him to a hakim and he said that the lil guy has been possessed by demon should be kept with him . For ages he was r+ped repeatedly. Later on when case was discussed in junior court the culprit was charged of physical harassment not r#pe bcs in my country at that time there were no law for being r+ped by penetration of object in male body .the poor boy fought his own community being termed as threat but recently the hakim is being sentenced to be prisoned until death (the fellowmen in jail will be very gerous to punish him .so I guess he got worst than death punishment )
I mean to say ....u r not alone many times God gives his most difficult fights to his strongest soldiers.
Recently in my country a major win came after a guy who was repeatedly r-ped went to supreme court for justice. He had autism since birth and his parents took him to a hakim and he said that the lil guy has been possessed by demon should be kept with him . For ages he was r+ped repeatedly. Later on when case was discussed in junior court the culprit was charged of physical harassment not r#pe bcs in my country at that time there were no law for being r+ped by penetration of object in male body .the poor boy fought his own community being termed as threat but recently the hakim is being sentenced to be prisoned until death (the fellowmen in jail will be very gerous to punish him .so I guess he got worst than death punishment )
I mean to say ....u r not alone many times God gives his most difficult fights to his strongest soldiers.