My life story (trigger warning)
I was born into a Christian cult. I was kept as a slave like many other children. I had to start having sex at the age of 4 beaten humiliated and kept in chains. 3 years ago a undercover police thing saved me and some others I'm 21 years old now I'll be 22 on thursday. I can't remember the last year or so I was with my owners which is probably for the best because during that time they shattered the bottom of my spine my legs became dead weights and when I was rescued they had to amputate my legs. I'm also missing a few of my fingers they were cut off by the bad people and I have lots of ugly scars. I know I love I'm a different country now in a safe place were I'm being protected and life is much better and happier now 🙂 I know I'm not alone in this I have spoke to a few people who have been through similar things. All we can do is keep trying things will get better ❤
@Tinywhisper11 @jesusredeemedme2425
@Tinywhisper11
Oh honey... I am so sorry :'(
There are... no words...
Those people are vile and evil, pedophiles and sadists and abusers. How DARE they call themselves Christians!!!!!!!
I’m sure you don’t remember it because your mind suppressed the memories. I’m thankful that your brain took care of you that way… I can’t fathom the atrocities that must have happened that your brain decided was too much for you…
I wish I could fix it all for you <3 And that people would stop using the term “Christian” when they’re abusive. It’s so wrong on so many levels…
Can I hug you?????? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 gives you a big hug ❤❤ I know now they were not real Christians. And don't worry I'm safe now ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Nooooo don't be sorry!!!! I'm so glad I know now <3 It helps me understand you better.
Possibly a dumb question (and don't feel pressured to answer!) <3, but how has it affected you? Negatively and positively?
@jesusredeemedme2425 negatively - I don't leave the home grounds, I'm disabled now and mental health issues. I'm not any where near as clever as other people. I've had to apadpt to a whole new world, which still now gets very overwhelming. So much security in place I can't live a normal life. I carry alot of guilt and shame.
positively - it's like I entered paradise. A world full of beauty, people who are nice to you. Technology, discovering music for the first time, seeing a flower, understanding what noises I was hearing and was so frightened off like rain, wind, thunder. I now know that pretty sound I used to hear was birds singing. I can wear clothes and I have a real bed to sleep in. And I can eat real human food. I'm just so thankful and grateful I have what I have. This world I never knew is beyond anything I could of ever have dreamed off ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Has anyone tried to find you after they rescued you?
I can absolutely understand the mental health issues… TBH I’m surprised you didn’t develop DID from the incredible amount of trauma you endured.
Have you thought about online school, like Khan Academy, DuoLingo, and other things? We can all show you the best ways to learn via the internet! <3
How can we help you adapt? You have a huge community who loves you and wants to take care of you. Use that to your advantage! What can we teach you? About anything… School subjects, how to navigate the world outside 7Cups, different languages, anything!
Can you get mail (perhaps under a pseudonym or sent to someone else)? Can you send away for things?
How can you feel guilt and shame for something that wasn’t your choice, for something you were forced into? <3
Was not one person nice to you during your time in the cult? :(
What would you like to learn about technology? We can definitely help there <3 Do you have a smartphone and access to apps? I know some great ones you can download <3
Did they never let you go outside when you were with the cult?
They never let you wear clothes????
Or sleep in a bed????
Or eat HUMAN food???
What did they do instead????
I love that you see the world as beautiful… Many people who have never gone through trauma like you have don’t view it that way at all. Your trauma (which, of course, should never have happened to you and you did NOT deserve) gave you a true gift that people may not think about… The ability to truly enjoy the world and see it as brand-new. So many of us see it as flat and mundane… You see it, essentially, through the eyes of a child, one who finds everything to be fresh and exciting and new. That’s such a blessing… May that gift stay with you forever <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 trigger warning- abuse slaves were not allowed clothes, when not in use we were kept in cages. We ate dog food. I currently am not allowed to have a phone, a bank card, my own email address, no mail comes to where I live. I order things I want with my carers. I'm not allowed on a lot of social media and other sites. A few of the other slaves have been tracked down😥 they are in heaven now😟 it's very scary. Oh and there's alot of security set up in place where I live, I'm under government protection. When I was mentally well enough after I was rescued. I had a teacher who came here to the carehome to teach me all lifes basics and things I needed to learn. Luckily my owners did do one kind thing (but for their benefit) they taught me how to read and write.
And yes I am very very lucky ❤ I have a second life now, a magical one, full of love and kindness. I'm very lucky and happy now ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Wow… These people are beyond belief. How could they possibly think any of this was ok????
You must have been so cold and so hungry all the time…
Are you given a certain amount of money you can use to buy things?
Oh wow… I’m so sorry. Did they die because the cult people thought they would narc on them?
What were you like mentally after you were rescued?
Why did reading and writing benefit your owners?
Have you thought about sending away for homeschool curriculum? Even if it’s “lower than your grade level”... Who cares. Heck, I still love homeschool curriculum! <3
Also, Khan Academy and DuoLingo are great resources and they’re free (Google them, I won’t send a link because I know you can’t open them). <3 Also, if you want to learn to draw, look up DrawABox. There’s also the most amazing art book ever that was the only one I could find that was simple enough to teach me to draw! It’s called “Mark Kistler’s Draw Squad”. It’s probably on Amazon if someone can order it for you.
What are your favorite things about your new life? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 tw-abuse, death. we were rescued by law enforcement, so they are already aware of the cult and what happens there😟 they took their lives because we were not supposed to have lived. Teaching some of us to read and write, was done with sexual punishment and torture. They recorded it as a sort of mini series. Porn was a big part of their money income. Torture porn sold best. They are a very rich powerful cult.
I have my own money now, but I can't have a bank account so I don't get anything coming to me directly. But yeah I get disability benefits and living cost income. I'm learning but by bit, slowly but not overwhelming myself ❤ after I was rescued my mental and physical health was really bad. I couldn't understand where I was, or that there was other people. It's a world I didn't know exsisted. It took almost a year for me to understand people are not gonna hurt me anymore, and that I am actually a human. Getting used to even lifes simple things was hard, very hard, and still is on times. I do love art and crafts 😁 I've never looked up how to draw and make things. It's just something that comes quite naturally, I'm actually really proud of myself for my art ❤ the best things in life are being able to understand what those noises I was hearing are, like rain, wind, birds. There are so many animals in this world it's amazing. And not only do we have this hugggeee world but outer space too. And technology, toys. I never saw it held a teddy bear till I was an adult. The fresh air, being able to see the sunshine, the snow. It's all amazing. Oh and the ocean, wow! We have a ocean😍
@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm really sorry if this upset you😞
@Tinywhisper11
NEVER apologize for that <3 On the most basic level, I love learning. I feel like you're teaching me things (like my convos with people with DID do). Yes, it's based in trauma, but it opens my eyes (and the eyes of others) to new thought processes and awareness of how people can be. These new thought processes lead to critical thinking, which can help prevent such evil from happening again, or help thwart it when discovered. People can't help/support/empathize with things they are ignorant about, so thank you for sharing your story, which will help others <3
(I hope that made coherent sense and conveyed as much deep respect and love as I can show you!!!! If you have any confusion or questions, please ask or share your thoughts. I don't mean to offend or anything, in any way, if something not intended is understood. I love you!!!!!!) <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 🙂 thanks sweetie ❤ I love you too ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
I’m very sorry all of this happened to you. As many have said before, this has nothing to do with the true message of Christianity, it is just a pure exploitation to get the hunger for power satisfied, as power corrupts people too often.
Being in training for service in a mainstream Christian church for some time, I saw quite a few examples of religious abuse. Every case was horrid - abusing people's spirituality can break their lives. What you described, however, is purely criminal and inhumane! I’m glad you got out.
I send you warm hugs and appreciate your story. You actually got out of *** in disguise!
@resourcefulLove1741 ❤❤ thankyou ❤ and yes I know now they are not real Christians, just bad people. But thanks for your mind words. Hugs you tightly ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I worry about you having your profile pic on here... Would they be able to find you with your photo being public?
@jesusredeemedme2425 😥 yes! I have been told this many times. And I guess it is a risk. But I have nothing in my computer to track me to where I am. But the main reason I use my own photo is because I have nothing, I don't leave the care home, no bank, no email address, no mail comes to where I live. 7 cups is my only shot at being a normal person. And people at cups have actually said I'm pretty. Noone ever says that, I just want to be have at least a little bit of life ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Hugs! Sending all the virtual hugs! (Wish I could figure out how to send a gif so I could send better hugs but haven't figured that out yet, sorry)
More hugs and prayers. Glad you're in a safer environment and pray that those people didn't ruin your view of true followers of God and not those that use His name falsely.
Hugs, prayers, and best wishes. ❤️❤️💯
@7Bear7 💖 thankyou💖 and I know how that they were not Christians at all💖
to send a gif, on the reply box there's a little square at the top with what appears to be a magic wand symbol, with little lines coming out the end of the wand, press on that button💖💖
