I am guilty and I don't know this is sexual assault or ..mm
When I was around 13 I can't remember clearly. my sister sneaked in when I was sleeping.she is my elder sister she was probably 16. She pulled me close and I thought maybe she had a habit of arm around me which I didn't like and was always annoyed by it.But I think i was half sleepy.so I didn't care.it was afternoon time.then she pulled my hand and wrapped around herself and put my thigh between her legs.i knew this wasn't something normal obviously and of course by that age I had watched porn and masturbated so I knew and I got aroused.i don't know why I didn't pull back and she dry humped my thigh which I didn't know about at that time And there was no speaking and she probably left after that.And this thing continued whenever parents weren't home.This later on advanced to bum touching and a lot of things as the time got by .Now I'm 17 and she is 20 and today it happened again.I was about to walk away as I'm avoiding her since 2 months but I don't know she touched me and again she dry humped me. Of course we never had touched each others main parts.But she always wants me to squeeze her boobs bare naked and has made me touch her down couple of times in past.She never touched me much.And I have been realizing that it has had much big mental Health issues since 2 years.At first I didn't know much and didn't felt the real regret.but since around I turned 15 I had the guilt every single time.When I look back she probably initiated everytime.we haven't ever talked about it.I don't know how about her guilt or anything.but she acts as if nothing happened.I just want to leave the house somehow.As she is staying here because her college is in same city.But I still have probably 4-5 months till I get to a college.Everything in my life is dark and not good.I haven't really been truly out of studying crisis since 2 years.
Hello
Purple can we talk
Okay,what do we talk?
Purple. I am so sorry to hear this. I cannot even imagine what you must feel. But have to stay strong and defend yourself. I know it's not easy. It's gonna be awkward. But you can't let this act and all those rippling thoughts destroy you and take control of your life. You're an amazing girl, you shouldn't be losing your teenage life to such pressure and disturbing thoughts. All love sweety❤️ hang on there and fight for yourself ❤️ we believe in you.
I'm not a girl.....I'm a guy
I am so sorry purple. I didn't mean to offend you. I should've answered more carefully.
It's totally okay.
You need to set some boundaries with your sister. Is it possible if you talk it though with your sister to set some boundaries, you already know that it is inappropiate things to do, you felt uncomfortable by it, she is a girl, and you are a guy, it is normal to be aroused around girls, but she is your sister, it might be hard to set boundary if you have never say a word to her about that, but you really need to, especially if it is bothering you and your life, if you don't know what to do in that situation if its ever happened again? Ask to yourself "what is the wisest thing to do in this situation?". You know if you set boundary, things might get awkward for both of you, you shouldnt get bothered about that. Think about the long-term effect it has on you.
