Just want to open up **sexual assault**it might be disturbing
**Don't read if you get triggered **sexual assault ** Idon't know but I feel really heavy and I guess I just should share this thing , since I was a child I was really emotional and sacrificing towards others ,my parents are really strict so while growing up Iwas alone & never shared anything with them ,I remember when I was 9-10 years old I was walking on this road ,it was summer time so I was walking in the shade & then saw this weird man walking besides me he was constantly trying to me ,I just ignored and suddenly he came close to me,I thought he just wanted to walk in shade I just kept walking and suddenly he pushed me towards and rubbed his private part with mine I started screaming and crying and pushed him I kept running until I reached home , second time I was sitting and this guy who was a maths teacher (and a guest) touched me around my chest , then I was sleeping with my cousin (female) she touched my b**bs,and then a shopkeeper touched my chest and pressed it, he tried to press his private part with mine but I somehow got out from there , another incident a guy I was sitting at a doctor's place touched me on my chest ...I'm 15 and already going through these incidents just make me feel I don't have a future ,I jusr hate myself ,keep self blaming ,I was weak and will be ,I feel like won't be protect myself ever,not a single day when I can't remember everything that happened to me & wrost part it most of them kept calling me "daughter"I'm just tired ... sorry for this much long message im really very sorry ...
Hey @shouKo25 , to begin with, I'd like to assure you , you never have to apologize for sharing your feelings ❤ this space is meant for it and I am so glad you did try letting it out, it is so heavy to just hear it ... I cannot possibly imagine how you must have been dealing while being in this awful situation .
I am so sorry to hear you've experienced multiple assaults ): and feel hesitant to share it with your near ones , your pain , frustration, anger , all your feelings are valid ....it is an incredibly tough situation to be in and I am really hoping things get better for you .
Please know, it is never your fault . You are not limited by the experiences you have , sometimes self protection may look like letting things out , taking a step forward in addressing the trauma and trying to heal ~ it might not seem the day today....but it is not very far either .
You have every right and opportunity to build your future the way you wish , you do have a future and someday then , you'll feel safe ~ safe to share your feelings and express your thoughts, safe to be yourself, safe from the cruelties in our world. Someday you will not hate yourself as much, someday loving yourself will come easier , someday you will not blame yourself , someday acceptance and being kind towards yourself will seem like a possible option . Someday...will be better .
These might just sound like random words in the air but , someday perhaps it will make more sense and more believable . I believe in you and I hope someday you will too .
Super proud of you for sharing with us, I know it couldn't be easy , you are so brave for trying to feel lighter by sharing the heaviness and I so hope you felt lighter and somewhat better letting things out that have been so difficult to go through .
I am glad you're reaching out on 7 cups and hope you find a safe space to feel comfortable to share your feelings always.
Keep holding on okieee , you are doing great and here's to hoping ~ this will pass soon ! ❤
You deserve to feel loved, safe , valued , cared for. You deserve to have a place where you feel safe and comfortable to be , you deserve to feel heard and supported.
Safe healing , shouKo , at your time and pace always !
Offering warm comfy hugs if okay .
Please take good care of yourself, you are important ❤
Hey...thank you for being so supportive ,your words are so valuable for me thank you for your encouraging words - made me feel better thank you
❤❤ happy to offer . @shouKo25