Need some advice (tw abuse, thoughts of being dead)
I was attacked a long time ago, never reported it or even spoke about it since. I’ve been having awful nightmares and flash backs. I know this sounds dramatic but I really wish he killed me that day. I’m not suicidal; which I know makes no sense. However I look at the scars I have from the attack and just feel ashamed and scared. I’m also in an abusive relationship which I’m trying to leave. However with all this going on I’m just not strong enough to leave.
@MAB1987
Thanks for sharing your story!
It takes a lot of courage to do that !
I am very sorry for all you went through.
I would suggest that you find a good therapist through trusted sources, like your doctor, friends, or a post-graduate psychology institution in your area, and start doing Therapy.
That support could give you the strength you need to make the tough decisions you might need to heal your wounds and change your life for the better.
I hope you get better soon.
Keep participating in this Community !
I wish you all the best,
Marcelo.
Thankyou for your kind words. I am on a waiting list for therapy just don’t know how long I’ll be waiting x
@MAB1987
You are welcome !
I am glad you have already applied for Therapy.
It might take some time, but you are already on the right track in your healing path.
All the best !
Marcelo
You say you are not strong enough to leave, but it would seem that staying would require more strength than leaving. Yet staying will not involve any improvement in your life that you seem in desperate need of!!
@MAB1987
I wish I would have just been totally killed too.