Sexual assault
When does it all just go away? I was 18 when they did it! I’m 34 now! I’m married! I’m a mom to 2 very amazing girls! Shouldn’t it be fading? I’m happy and I’m not! Somedays I’m fine and so days I can’t get out of bed! Lately it replays in my mind a lot! I guess bc I’m curious where the worst night of my entire life went soooo wrong? Idk what to do anymore! I can’t go to therapy bc they want my name b day etc it just don’t feel safe for me yet! I’m often paranoid! I’m exhausted from lack of sleep!!!! Ughhhhh!!!
I totally got you and even though I don't know you in real life, I want to send you a hug ❤️
I totally understand how you feel, because to be honest I also usually just feel sad and anxious for no reason these days 😢 I am so sorry you experienced that when you were 18 (I experienced similar things last year), as at that age you could not even live independently from your family, and what they did is totally unforgivable!! I think writing all your feelings down is a good way to express your emotions if you don't want to go to therapy. Using self-help apps is also a great idea as they really help me to live my life more fully and make things easier! Besides, watching self-help videos on YouTube can be useful too as you can learn and try these techniques by yourself. Let me know if any of these sounds better to you, and I wish you are recovering day by day! 🙏🏻
Ty I have made some contact for therapy but I just don’t think I can do it ugh it’s soooo hard idk what to do I wanna rest and heal from this sooo I can be happy
@thoughtfulBike3473
I understand your fear of therapy. I understand how difficult it is to share what happened for fear of judgement and reactions that don't help. I am so sorry this event is keeping you awake at night. I will say that therapy and medication got me through the worst of it. I was not functioning well at all. I was becoming worse by the day so I just had to reach out for help. The bravest people ask for help they are their own hero and can save themselves. It is possible. And any communication with a counselor or therapist is confidential and cannot be shared with anyone unless you ok it.
I wish you peace with your past and may your future be happy and wonderful for you .
Best
ABB
@thoughtfulBike3473 take the help of medicines and meditations. Try not to react on your thoguhts
It just doesn't go away.. I am 34 and it happened to me when i was 10.. I am married too.. And i am unable to open up with anyone. Not even with my wife
I am sooo sorry it's the worst!
I know the feeling, happened to me like a year and a couple months ago, sometimes i still feel his touch, there are still showers where i still try to scrub away the feeling, there are still nightmares. I believe with time we deal with the triggers, but i wish i knew how to deal with the pain, the trauma and the grieve from what i could be if it didn't happen.
In my case,it sucks a lot because being a minor doesn't help with getting the help i feel like i need, and i couldn't try to speak up because i would have to tell my parents about it, and i simply cannot and never will.
I'm so sorry atleast I was 18!! 3 men did it sooo im disgusted with myself as well as them!!
