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last july i was sexually assulted by a popular boy a year above me. nobody took me seriously. my best friend was with me when it happened and she said it's okay because he's attractive and a lot of girls at my school like him and his friends too. i knew already nobody would do anything. not enough evidence, i wasn't r*ped so it wasn't "severe enough" and people would defend him. at the time i thought i was just dramatic so i did nothing and went about my life. every day at school he'd look me in the eyes and smile at me like nothing happened, like he enjoyed the fear in my eyes. i ignored everything until recently. i keep having flashbacks, i keep seeing his face remembering what he said and what he did. i don't feel like myself anymore, i don't know who i am and my body doesn't feel mine. i feel like i'm disconnected from myself. i know now, it's too late to do anything so that doesn't bother me. i just want to know how to cope and how to get over it. if anyone has any advice that would be great <3
Are you sure you don't want to tell anybody I'm not telling you to do something you don't want but I feel that you deserve justice? There isn't any quick answer to coping but day by day it gets better; you just have to take it moment by moment and understand that this wasn't your fault and you are still worth so much. "Wounds don't heal the way you want them to, they heal the way they need to. It takes time for wounds to fade into scars. It takes time for the process of healing to take place. Give yourself that time. Give yourself that grace. Be gentle with your wounds. Be gentle with your heart. YOU DESERVE TO HEAL." - Dele Olanubi. Breathe and be compassionate towards yourself.
@Shyness98 sorry for the late reply, but thank you for your response! honestly i don't feel like speaking up and trying to get any legal justice will do anything :/ i read into it recently and there's not much you can do past the one year point which i'm quickly approaching. i don't have the clothes i wore anymore either. i have no evidence and he was high at the time too which would probably be used as an excuse. i was groped which often isn't at all taken seriously either so i have a very weak case :( but thank you for being so lovely and compassionate with me, it means a lot <3
