2:56 am
im still awake staring at my laptops screen which has Youtube on it doing nothing...was watching videos without proper attention...before then i was palying games...my life is gloomy guys..its empty with pretty much no people around...trust me onone i can i vent to or fully yk " talk " yo....i have exam a day after tomorrow but who knows i didint study for it....i was a good student but something happend to me after 2024 and what i can tll its been probably 8 motnhs since i last studied properly...im soo down that i cant study anymore . plz dont call me lazy i tried guys . i tired so hard but nothing works for me..im just wrting this cuz holding it inside me isnt easy anmore and ive thought of every reason not to write..but cant hold this anymore..if youve read this far thank you for your time and just whish me luck as im an empty body here..i was very very stressed and overwhelmed today and looking around me i found noone even tho i was surrounded by my family members so i layed half of my body down on my bed and was just looking up in the cealing how did i become those movie charecters ? i was holding my cries cuz im a man who just turned 18 and i cant be crying...i was telling my sis about moms phone just was telling her to take the phone and stuff but was struggling to stay in controll...guys what should i do ? like seriously what should i do huh ? what the flip is happening? i really cant hold all this problem anymore . i know im wasting my time writing here as noone gives a stuff here .... i hvae " caring " listeners long dead here who had said they wouldnt leave...i hate to talk like this cant erase them cuz i dont wanna wast my words..i didnt sleep this whole time. as im writing this its 3:18 am. thanks for reading this far. im sure since u read this much u can understand whats going on here.
@tona033 I can relate to you, and I want you to know that you matter ❤️ these thoughts, feelings , heavyness of the nights can feel so draining and frustrating, but the fact that you're here, trying and reflecting on things, instead of bottling them up. that's huge. I'm really sorry that you're struggling 🙁 Please try to be gentle with yourself ❤️ You're trying, and even thinking of a change , and that matters. You're not lazy nor you're weird . I see someome exhausted and overwhelmled from all the pressure ❤️ You don't have to go through it all alone 🤍 We're all here for you ❤️ whenever you need a space to feel heard ❤️ Sending you lots of love and *hugs* 🐾💕
@tona033
I totally understand how you are feeling. I am currently going through something similar, and first of all, I want you to know that it's okay to cry. I know it might be hard to recognize that sometimes, especially if external factors are reinforcing that ideology, but it is completely ok to cry. I think you are very brave and strong for writing this, and I appreciate your honesty. I also want you to know that you are not alone in how you are feeling; in fact, what you just described is very similar to my life. You're not lazy at all, and I hope you can find peace.
