Asked to take the First Step - This is Me and My Current State
Hello All,
I'm reaching out because I've just joined because I want to be healthy and not let past traumas continuously pop up in my current life. Unfortunately, I've hit rock bottom...and I know that's true. But I've been trying to stay motivated and seek help and surround myself with inspirational voices and thoughts.
Nothing is a one time fix, I'm not naive.
But my sadness and hurt are deeper than I've ever experienced in my 31 years of life ... I believe I feel it so deeply because I've left the tough person act behind a few years ago. I've grown up quite a bit but because I've opened up to life it's pushed me to my furthest limits and I'm absolutely broken now.
3 days out of a deep relationship and asked to move out. Then an accidental run in with the law didn't help at all (everything/everyone is alright).
I'm blessed that I don't have dependents outside of my animals, home, vehicles and bills. But I still have to go to work everyday and "function".
I'm cut so deep right now, I don't even know how I'm doing ANYTHING.
I start to cry, I talk myself through it then stop and move on. How much longer can I do that???? I'm trying everything in my power to ground myself, journal, exercise, exercise my animals, clean my home, participate in a 90-day gratitude journal, read my religious beliefs.
How is this all my fault, why did everything around me crumble? As the days go on my sadness sustains but my hurt grows.
@goldenBranch8894 Welcome!✨🤍 Thankyou for sharing I wish all ur struggles and whatever ur going through starts feeling better soon.🍀Sending lots of love and comfort to you!🐾💕
Thank you 🙏 I deeply appreciate the kind words.
@goldenBranch8894
Hi, I'm new here too! Your words touched me because I share your hurt and pain. It hurts that we have to deal with everything despite it all and just keep moving on, keep being ..."normal" and having to be normal. But ... In time, things will improve because time heals all wounds, or so they say.
Stay strong, but when you feel less than strong it is definitely okay to let your feelings out. I feel your frustrations too, because how can we be patient when life has not been so kind and fair? How can we move forward when the road ahead looks bleak, directionless, our path so uncertain?
Yet, you're here and you've taken a first step. You're pushing through despite the pains and all the exhaustion and just everything. You've inspired me too cuz this is my first step here... I've yet to try interacting with anyone, it's a bit intimidating for me 😅 So for that, I applaud and I appreciate you, for opening up and sharing! The way forward is uncertain, but no matter how small it is each steps count, and they all lead and contribute to somewhere in the end. So thank you for taking your first step, and for helping me connect too 🙂
I feel you… I’m there too. *hugs*
@goldenBranch8894 I'm right there with you. I just recently joined as well.