New Here And First Time Reaching Out

Hello,

This is my first time posting here and first time reaching out. I've been really struggling a lot mentally for over 2 years now, and it's getting worse. I've been unemployed for over a year and a half, and people closest to me are calling me lazy and a bum. It's been so hard to find any motivation for anything, even as simple as getting out of bed, so getting a job would be super tough. I hate being seen as lazy when I'm fighting so hard to even live. I don't know what to do anymore as the money I had saved is almost gone and I'm just so tired. I sleep almost the whole day, because of me being tired and I also use sleep as an escape from my life. I've also felt so alone in this time and have no one who I feel comfortable talking to. This is the lowest I've been and I can't find a way out.

Thanks for reading.