What is something you would say to your younger self?

I would tell my younger self that I should have listened to my dad

That life does get better, even if it seems like it never will

@CheeryMango i’m sorry

@CheeryMango

I would tell my younger self, that it is okay not to be absolutely perfect! And that trying is what counts the most!

Maybe it will get better maybe it won't. But keep pushing because you don't know when you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Pick up a shovel and dig until you're through don't stay in the dark and don't smile if you don't feel like it. Let those emotions shine through and lead the way.

To past me and those who need it.

Keep living...I know you suffered a lot and gadgets and social media was the only one who cheered you up when you are alone and depressed

• "The world isn't perfect. ...
• "We are all like fireworks: we climb, we shine, and always go our separate ways and become further apart. ...
• "Fear is not evil. ...
• "Fear is freedom! ...
• “I want you to be happy. so go to the whole world and explore what have you learned to answer your curiosity and find happiness

@CheeryMango you made the right choice. Even though you’ve been through hell, keep being the fruity, loving, caring treasure u are. Never give up

@CheeryMango

(Though you can't get carried away about it, but...) if you think you have superior talents in some way, own it. "Steal" your own time back--ditch school constantly, and just go read in a library, work out when bored, rinse and repeat.

Your planet is a literal "god(dess)"-like being who originated (and designed you) at the core of the galaxy, then blasted into the outer limbs of this galaxy to be with us and manifested as the physical Earth, where she dreams of all that happens here in her (and her Jovian consort's) creations. In doing so, she accidentally (she's young and playful) created our horrible distant cousins who use certain of our species here as proxies (not with physical presence) to do their bidding. But their goals are more or less physically impossible, and ultimately she is still in complete control.

You are a part of that, and because you/I know this, we take on far more of a "leading" role. But like the sign of "Aries", leading means being lonely as well. So don't go blabbing about this (oops), because people, for the longest time, will be more aligned with our degenerate distant cousins than with their closer, sibling species, and they might turn on you more than just "accidentally" (or subconsciously on purpose), as I'm sure you've noticed they cannibalistically treat each other.

That's why I told you the first part, which you should never forget: You are superior to society, and never forget it. Leave space for others to declare the same, there's room for all at the top--but don't try to help people who don't go looking for it, first. They are looking for a relationship with Her again, but are kind of emotionally retarded, so it's not going to help (you or them) to try to help, do you get it? That's why I told you the first part, and never forget it: ditch school, it is a prison. The "buzzers" that go off sound exactly like the ones in jails, judging from CCTV A/V footage (of the latter) and experience (the former).

Don't forget: Your sense of superior, what you could call "heroic" inner might is often practically the only inner signal that can cut through the restricting, ugly static that the society of intelligent (but not smart) idiots inflict on each other. Don't villify them, though, they "know not what they do"--just stay out of their way: ditch school, go to the library, do your own thing, work out when you get bored, rinse and repeat. And because this will boost your "sex" appeal tremendously, don't ever get a girl pregnant. Just don't even mess with them unless you're making tons of wealth.

Oh, that reminds me, learn the shtuff out the fraudulent financial system. It's all based on debt-death-guilt. Learn etymology when you don't know what a thing is, and especially when others don't seem to either (even though they talk about it a lot). Also, learn the law--the true law--and learn the overlaid legal industry alterations of law as you go. Schools won't teach you how to build a house handle the legal-financial (same thing) system, build social confidence, how to fight, how to protect, how to fix cars, almost nothing that's not watered down and weak from the start. Don't tolerate it.

Learn tactical communication. For ex., when they start testing your intelligence and invite you to accelerated programs in school, don't go, but instead use it as negotiation leverage (everything is negotiated energy or "chi" exchange) to force those idiots to leave you alone and agree that your time is yours, and they themselves admitted that you have an "elite" intelligence--so, do they think that not even highly gifted people should have the basic freedom to choose what to do and when? ...And then be extremely, tonelessly, harsh on them when they look up into space, go "duhhhhhhh...." but then try to tell you what to do anyways. Smash their pitiful, childish, government-dominated mental-emotional state, but don't be mad about it. Take this Zen koan to heart (study Zen with all your free time):

A wealthy swordsman was once robbed. He chased the thief down, pulled out his sword, and was about to cut him down. The thief spat in his face. The swordsman calmly put his sword back in its sheath, walked away, and let the thief go. Some short time later, the exact same thing happened. The swordsman chases the thief down, corners him, and draws his sword. The thief spits in his face (again). The swordsman doesn't flinch and raises the sword. The thief frantically exclaims, "Wait! Before you do it, just tell me why you let me go the last time!" The swordsman obliges: "Because I was angry."

...That must be your (interpersonal) relationship with anger. The moral is this: it cheapens you--dulls your mental blade--to exert muscle against people out of anger. Even if you want to use anger as a tool, let it be sort of a "fake" anger if others will see you.

Others will be extremely taxing on you. Physically, emotionally, and mentally--but you still need them. Oh yeah, read the "Book of 5 Rings." In it, the author says, "It is difficult to know the self if you do not know others." But don't overdo it--they are as crazy as they are kind or "gentile" as the bad proxies think of us. Also, "Going too far is as bad as not going far enough", as that same book puts it.

Abrahamic religion and the mental distortions its caused is your enemy, but you can't touch it. Instead, learn to identify its distortions even in those who say they don't follow it (e.g., "Science" worshippers). You'll be exceptionally good at science, and there will come a time when idiots (from a Greek word meaning "those who do not know what is going on around them") will try to force you to do foolish, harmful, and restricting things in its name. So get the upper hand (in all things) especially in the study of true science. You'll be a natural at this.

You're also a natural in bodily energy. With all your free time (don't forget to "steal" your own time back from schools/prisons), learn about "chi", kundalini, and the ancient arts dedicated to it. Make it the core of your life. Remember what I said about the sex appeal--all the more, here. Match your "person"al (that's a bad curse word in "legalese", btw) power with double levels of virtue. Don't ever flinch on this, or you could hurt people just when you try to help them. I mean it.

You are like a firey red dragon (a "Red Cosmic" one, at that) who has to wear the mask of a "dog" in order to get by. As a result, people will at once love and fear you for the primordial energy that their "dusty" subconsious genius still recognizes--but they can't have more than a little bit of it, or it hurts them (and then they try to hurt you). I told you how they were, and they will be the most difficult trials for you--just every day foolishness, for you, is like kryptonite. Ditch school and start making (fake, at first...) money, and then convert that money to property, more time, and true wealth. Smash, without anger, anyone's toes who step into your way, and don't even so much as leave a small scratch on the toes of those you need to sort of socially "wiggle" your way around. They know not what they do.

You are leading a dharma of converting your "spiritual" (don't let that word lead you around, it is corrupted--think "energetic" instead) trillionaire (or more) wealth into sufficient and powerful physical wealth, and with one social arm tied behind your back. But again, with your time firmly under your own control, almost no matter what, you will nevertheless have a great advantage at this. You will not have that advantage if you fail to stop "well-meaning" idiots from stealing your time from you. Let them suffer if that's what it comes to, but don't inflict it. Just get your way without breaking your virtue. Maybe you'd appreciate the writings of Marcus Aurelius, at that, with all your free time.

With anything you study, don't get caught up reading it endlessly. You can even just flip the book open, see where your eyes naturally fall, and trust that your innate mental gifts are showing you what you need to see exactly when you need to see it. Think like you are, in some small way (because you should consider yourself lightly, but consider the world deeply), a co-equal to Her (read the Nag Hammadi Codices, here and there) who can do anything you can dream of... and it turns out this or that or any exact moment is, by some inner sorcery of yours, actually is exactly what you truly want and need to experience in all your wildest dreams. Let that be the wildest dream you consider most often, and you will extract the most unimaginable powers available to you (which are loaned to you, btw) through your dedicated humility.

But don't let people tell you not to be arrogant; just don't be narcissistic (the plague of your time, my friend/child/allie) or fall into hubris at all. Rather, know what you are better at than others, and rather than talk about those things, do things with them.

I've written this down so that you don't have to stress about remembering this jam-packed data. Everything interesting is like this. It is a "terma" to borrow from Tibetan buddhism. You can handle these words because you are an Aquarius.

@CheeryMango it was never your fault and you are good enough

Keep positive and never give up.