I feel like shouting right now because.......

I want someone to finally notice I'm going through hell qnd I don't know what to do

A year ago I was a hypocrite and got impatient with my girlfriend for being distant due to her self doubt issues and I broke up with her. And to this day I love her and just want her back but she is happy with someone else now and hates me and I dont know what to do.

Because i sometimes put a gun to my head but put it down every time and i dont know what i want anymore

I feel like shouting cause I think I'll never be good enough for anyone, not my friends, not my family, not anyone, and I don't know what to do to change that. Its just soo frustrating

I want to shout because I know I'm worthless, that people shouldn't have to worry for me, or care for me, because I don't deserve it, because their waste if their time on trash, aka me. They should focus on themselves not me, I want to shout because today I lost a gem of my most important ring, from my aunt that's home bound for 8 years because of a car accident, I want to scream because I'm stupid, worthless, and a waste of time.

i cant be me like who i really wanna be is being held hostage by my social environment

The man I love, won't be with me. And it's selfish of me to want him come up because he said from the beginning that this would never be more than a friendship. It's selfish of me to ask him to at least try. Because he's a good man; he's thinking of his kids. But that doesn't make me want him less. He's perfect for me. and the more and more and more I try to date and see other people. the more and more and more I realize, I'm right. He is perfect

I want to let all the stress inside me slip away

I feel like I just exist, I try to feel something to be happy but i cant. I lie about how I feel and smile through the day, but I just want to scream all the time. I try to tell people how I feel but my anxiety stops me. Its driving me insane and I cant tell anyone. Im afraid my depression is coming back I dont want it to. Depression and anxiety almost killed me last time and Im afraid Im not strong enough to survive it again.

I feel like I just exist, I try to feel something to be happy but i cant. I lie about how I feel and smile through the day, but I just want to scream all the time. I try to tell people how I feel but my anxiety stops me. Its driving me insane and I cant tell anyone. Im afraid my depression is coming back I dont want it to. Depression and anxiety almost killed me last time and Im afraid Im not strong enough to survive it again.