I feel like shouting right now because.......

I hate myself!

Everything is going wrong and I miss my girlfriend terribly.

I've been sober 2 years and still have no idea what I am doing!

I've been sober two years and still don't know what I am doing

I'm so fed up.

@Laura a sinister mosquituo buzzed in my ear and woke me up...i am so irritated.. i cant even locate the culprit to swat it, to kill it, to crust it between my palms, to squeeze him, to bang him/her on the wall.

I just feel so hopeless at the moment :(

I want to scream because I can't do anything right and I'm always hurting people and I hate myself!!

i can

Someone who came yesterday will now be my project manager at a job that I have been handling for the last 3 years.. My responsibilities have been changed coz my managers feel insecure putting me on the management track.. I feel an open heart to learning what I need to learn for favorable career prospects in the future.. but right now my heart silently aches and bleeds and screams at the politics and injustice of it all. Also, I feel overwhelmed by the racism and sexism in my job.. To prevent it from coming up as an issue of racism and sexism.. they hired a black female.. I guess it looks better.. replacing an Indian migrant female with a black female so the issue of racism or sexism or sexual harrassment doesn't come into play, especially coz my boss was openly trying to flirt with me, in the first 6 months at this job, knowing fully well that both he and I were married to our individual spouses. I have beautiful baby, and I was not available in a manner in which he wanted me.. I proposed a 45 million dollar revenue generation idea for the company through written email.. and he presented it to the management as his idea..