Overwhelm, stress, anxiety and burnout, mostly from work but also from just everyday life.

Irritability/restlessness

A higher level of loneliness than Im used to.

Anxiety.

I have felt incredibly jealous of my friends. My best friend has very bad anxiety and struggles with stress so its hard for me to ask to hang out because I know how it feels and I dont want to stress her out more. I always happen to ask at the wrong times so I get turned down and get very discouraged. Then she hangs out with another friend and I feel very jealous and protective over her. I have a few other friends that act close to her when were all together and it makes me upset and I get worked up. Its mostly frustrating because my mind tells me that she doesnt like me every though I know differently. Its difficult to overcome the voices telling me I need to be jealous.

I can't go anywhere, even when I try super hard. Damn this love it sucks. Love sick and im Soo hungry for it. It's like I can go forward and then back to where I was. Don't think ill be abea leave ever. It sucks. I go then come right back.

Recently I've been feeling worthless. I havent done anything to better myself since I graduated and it seems like my life is going no where.

Insignificance - my bf who I was caregiver for 24/7 for several years, just passed away from his colorectal cancer, and I didn't realize how much this role supplied me subconsciously with feelings of worth and necessity. Now without him, I reflect on possible directions to go, but they all seem common and disposable in the grand scheme of things, labeling me as just an "extra" with no consequence if I am here or not.

I am feeling anxious since last two days as i have changed my number to get rid of my toxic ex

Anticipation.

I am not used to change, so moving house and job is difficult at the moment. I feel so much anticipation for the future, which is new. I'm just not sure what to do with this new and exciting feeling, haha :) just hoping everything goes well.