One difficult emotion I have been experiencing recently is.....

...uncertainty. Uncertainty of the thoughts and emotions of other people, especially of the person I have feelings for, and uncertainty of my future. I just want things to go the way I want them to for once and the possible outcomes make me feel both sad and hopeful.

..... feeling like I can

Despair

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Disappointment and self criticism.

Frustration. I struggle with it alot, and struggle to express it well in words (when explaining it) :|

Feeling disgusted by myself and feeling like I can't control myself because I'm too weak...

The feeling of not being understood by anyone close to me. It causes so much anxiety, stress and shame to try and explain why I zone out seemingly uncontrollably, why I get so tired even though Im not doing much or just trying to hide it all do I dont need to worry anyone or answer questions from people that cant imagine how it is like or how they are affecting me.

Confusion. I can never seem to fully gather my thoughts and fully connect with a situation around me. Its like looking through a window thats covered in fog but you cant wipe it off from the inside. I constantly feel lost and instead of a path under my feet, its like Im floating above empty ground.

Loss