One secret I have been keeping that I am ready to share is....
I like my co worker but hate him at the same time cause i know the kind of women he's into, and I'm not that type.
I have feelings for two people. One was raised in a loving home but rebelled against his conservative parents and turned out to be an alcoholic who is slowly destroying himself to deal with some sort of inner disappointment he must feel or perhaps self-medicating a mental disorder. The other is the opposite, abusive parents and grew up too quickly and is incredibly mature and polite to the point of me watching his ex walk all over him and watching it destroy him to the point where he tells me all about it in the car at night, heartbroken and self-loathing and disenchanted, both thinking no one will ever love them.
Did I mention I was married to someone who I feel takes me for granted and that I constantly wonder if I'm in love with anymore? Do these two even have the slightest idea I have feelings for either of them? Do they even care? Do they know my heart breaks, watching the one come to work with bipolar mood swings like my own, sleeping with anyone who is willing but knowing he isn't happy (he's told me this) and then for me only to walk a few feet further to see the other confess he cares about me but then see his heart break when his ex comes in for her shift and not give him the closure he needs? Do I tell them? Do I kill my husband's heart? Do I stay unhappy as always, doing what the world wants, never what I want? Would anyone even care? How can they both NOT know? How can they both hate themselves so much and yet not see what I see?
@Isabellemourning78
Oh and a recent aside: I get slut-shamed by other workers who don't know my situation but know I have feelings for Guy #1 bc it's blatantly obvious to EVERYONE. My life is hell. I can't afford to live on my own without my husband's financial help. It kills me every single day. Guy #2 and I are close friends but Guy #1 and I can't seem to quit each other yet we don't cross that boundary. Is it sad that I wish we would?
The secrets that are way too important for me i shared with my ex already. The secrets i have never shared with anyone is, wh
en i was in 2nd grade, a guy sexually abused me. When i was in 8th grade, my math teacher sexually molested me.
My dad is almost 60 and is still cheating on my mum and Im the only one that knows
I hate it and I think about telling my mum and confronting my dad everyday but I dont
Im scared of destroying a broken home
That I've been molested and rapped. And my mother doesn't know.
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@blueSail831 I feel you we can only hope we are wrong and that eventually we will find that special someone :')
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Im a lesbian and asexual
I hang out with friends but the only time I truly feel happy is when im high or drunk. Also this girl that i work with at my part time job that is super cute makes me wanna risk it all to ask her out but that would make things awkward and i would probably have to quit.
p.s. her name is hannah gonzales (no one will ever know who she is just based on her name but it feels good putting her name there)
I was in an emotional affair long-distance affair with a guy who ended up being a Sociopath. When I refused physical intimacy with him, he said things about me that shattered me. It has been 2 years and I have not recovered from the emotional toll the relationship took on me.
