One secret I have been keeping that I am ready to share is....

I don't feel comfortable about talking about my feelings and keep them balled up inside and I sit alone at night listening to sad music crying myself to sleep while looking at the moon questioning my life and why I exist if I honestly have no purpose and can only see sad things in even the happiest situations.

I secretly make my self sick and no one knows and I just can't stop my self I just feel fat all the time x

I have been raped on three separate occasions and was worried for ages that I would have acquired something from them. It messed with my confidence so I was single for a few years as I became more asexual. I hid this by saying I didnt have time for a relationship but that wasnt true, I just hated this body that was disrespected. My no didnt mean anything it fed into my work a family relationships where everyone wanted to control and use me and to this day I still struggle to set boundaries. I dont know how to cement boundaries so that people are unable to cross them, I would like help to remind myself of the boundaries that I set.

Im afraid that Im hiv+ and I want my know for several more months

Still can't say them.

I am crazily possessive over the people that I love. I want them to have the same perspective with me and I want them to understand me eventhough I know how crazy I am, I am demanding. and I wish to stop that...

I can't help but lie almost all the time, even on things that doesn't matter. I don't understand why and I'd like to stop, but my first answer to anything never is the truth. I get myself into big kingdoms of lies and I have to remember them all so that I don't make any mistake. I don't know how to get out of it, and now that I'm so deep in it I can't just stop because people will think I betrayed them, which was never the goal, or will see me differently. I don't want to lose everyone's trust, even if I know I don't deserve it.

The self-harm feelings never actually went away. I want to do it again but I don't want men to see me as ugly/uncomfortable/ a wreck because of it.

I wish the people surround me know that I am so lonely and depressed.

I wish my boyfriend know that I tried to end my life.

I wish my parents are stopped yelling on me.

I wish somebody know that I need helps.

I am very close to giving up.