That I probably have autism because of the way I socialize and don't understand social cues and I can't look strangers in the eyes when they talk to me. But because I was abandoned this probably went under the rug and I'll never really know if I have autism. Most of my friends think I'm autistic.
Happiness is always attainable. :)
i will never feel better. i will be alone forever. i will never recover from this paralysis of the mind and drive. im never going to meet a woman who is right for me. im going to suffer nonstop and never feel God in my life
@nuitnoire42 What would the right you feel like? What would he/she do? Where would he/she go?
@YesYouCan7 the right woman for me-- well, as someone who spent the overwhelming majority of life in solitude and who has never once been in a happy relationship-- i can only construct a fairly general notion of what i know is most essential for me. I would describe her as woman with a great heart and a great mind, perceptive and sensitive, intelligent/nerdy and sweet, affectionate, eccentric, curious, someone w/ self-respect, a strong sense of who she is and what she wants, an interest for art, travel, and whimsical conversation. Someone who would be my best friend and make a wonderful partner to spend the rest of my life with.
@nuitnoire42 You seem to be very clear about your dream woman :) Where would people that share this description be found?
@nuitnoire42 sending 
your way. i hope that one day you attain true happiness
We're responsible for our own happiness and fulfillment. Nothing and no one will give us these things. We need to seek it and work for it.
@vivalaresistance Great to hear you're empowered to steer your own life :)
One thing I firmly believe is that we are all good...
one thing I firmly believe is that I will never be able to get better
Lemons are awesome, eat the lemons life gives you
that all my promblems are a relative. It just can't be that what has been troubling me for years has any value, compared to the enormous concept of life.
Things can and will get better
Everything will be ok
