One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}

I have the biggest fear of failure. Especially if it's something other people do like it's drinking a glass of water... it makes me feel stupid and I know I can make it up, or at least rationally thinking... my irrational thoughts have other opinions and that brings me to have massive panic attacks at school for which I stay in the bathroom stalls for at least 20 minutes crying and having problems breathing...

I can't take it anymore because I feel like people expect me to be perfect and better than others and that drives me crazy. I'm on a cliff, holding onto dear life, while people go to the other side through a rainbow bridge that I can't cross cause I would fall dawn... but the ones around me try to make me pass and as long as i smile I can at least touch it but the bridge doesn't sustain my weight...

Online is the only place where I feel comfortable to be me. And tell my problems... is it strange?

I've never told anyone how much I hate my body. It has never felt right, it's too tall and wide. Even when I was anorexic it didn't feel right. I want to change my bone structure. I have never seen myself represented through my body when I look in the mirror.

I'm really ashamed of the fact that I feel nostalgic of my elementary phase...

I was bullied a lot and my classmates even tried to kill me several times but... I miss those times...

I'm really messed up.

I've never told anyone how I feel in public. Every one has a purpose and looks so comfortable with themselves and I just want to hide back at home where I am not in the way and people can't see my flaws.

I have been constantly having issues with body image. I have depression and I have no one to talk and no to forget I am gay

I never told anyone I'm suicidal. I look like a very happy woman.

Ive never told anyone I am very unhappy with my looks, my body and face give me bad anxiety

I never told anyone that I self harmed. I truly want to die at times or just run away. I tried cutting myself once but it hurt too much so I stopped.

Ive never told anyone my feelings about relationships. Im the oldest person in my family history not to be married with kids at 23. The thing is, thats all I want. A family. I just cant seem to find someone who isnt wanting just a fling. Im always told that Im the right girl at the wrong time, but it still sucks.

I have never told anyone this, but there was a time I felt connected to my parents and loved them. Back when I was just a little boy in primary school.

I really miss that time. Even though now I really hate my parents for everything they did, even though they were already doing the wrong things back then. I didn't know better, and I loved them and I miss that feeling.