One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}
Just... blurt it out! Don't be nervous! Make your secrets not so secret....
The pressure does get to me at times
That I have loads of abuse and am struggling with life because I had a very sheltered life early on had been forced to take drugs most of my life I didn't need.
Majority of the time I am sad. I am fighting back tears. I hate myself most days... I feel absolutely WORTHLESS.
@CharismaLeBlanc I understand you, I feel the same. Sometimes when I'm with somebody(but only a small amount of people) I forget about it but I mostly avoid people and prefer being alone so I don't have to pretend to be fine. And I have had ups and downs so I'm never sure what is the next day going to be like. I also want to talk about my feeling but I just don't feel comfortable, I think about talking but than I get scared, I have been through anorexia(it didn't get to a scary point that you can reallysee it but I have lost a lot of weight in a pretty small amount of time I had also lost my period for around 3 months and that scared me to battle through it now I gained a few kilos and it makes me really insecure I'm still in a messed up relationship with food and my body and it's really hard but I'm scared to talk to anyone about it) 
I help people on a daily basis with their mental health, yet have regular thoughts of suicide.
I never saw a future for myself until I met him. O couldn't see myself at all... like I killed myself off. And when he came in my life, I saw a home with 3 little kids and I see myself happy... but it doesn't matter anymore because we aren't together anymore.
I am really good at making my life seem in order but really everything is holding on by a thread. Its gotten to the point where I keep track of how much about me other people know so I know what type of lies to go with when I'm around them.
One thing ive never told anyone is... i think people will laugh at me if they found out i cut myself..
@suicidalFOBfan2003 No they won't. I'm sure the people that love and care about you(and I'm sure there is someone) will support you and help you. Please talk to someone about it, if nothing talk to me. I know it's easier said than done but try. I myself have problems with confiding in people but I hope you can be stronger than me and talk to somebody. If nothing I am here to talk. 
I actively avoid people because I have a phobia of being touched by another person
I'm certain that I am unlovable, no matter how hard I try I will never truely be accepted.
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