One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}
Just... blurt it out! Don't be nervous! Make your secrets not so secret....
I think the worst about myself compared to anyone.
That I'm a fake! I'm totally confused about what I wanna do in life. Hell! I don't even know if I'm a good person, many say I'm kind hearted but some say I'm cruel. I fake being happy a lot cuz I think everyone else is fake as well. My best friend is acting like a bish and I don't even know if she ever was my bestie. Now I think I'm happy. But a part of me thinks I wouldn't be happy without her, honesty I'm trying to fight this feeling from getting in my way of being happy but Bruh! Three years of friendship and this is what she does to me.....didn't expect it at all 😑😞
Awwwh! <3 *huggles* You can get through this! @Sensitiveangel001
One thing I have never told anyone is how hard it is to keep acting like a girl.
@blueLion4037 Why are you acting like a girl? Wouldn't it be easier to just do what you want to do?
@creativeCar6208
I'm agender, but I don't want my mom to find out because I'm worried about what might happen. I also don't have the means to be more masculine.
@blueLion4037 I'm sure that your mom would love you no matter what
@creativeCar6208
I know, but I have a feeling she'll give me a lecture on how she's "tired of this whole gender thing" and that wouldn't be good with my anxiety and depression.
Since my breakup, my urge to have sex has shot up and not able to do so is frustrating
@Atriv4 Yeah that sounds about right.But don't worry things will get better just takes a little time.
I have never told anyone that im very sensitive, people think words dont bother me but they truly do, another thing is that i suffer from depression and anybody knows so its hard to live hiding and pretending that everything it's okay
@goldenlychee18 That is very understandable, I am the same way... Some times i will keep playing the words over and over in my head. It is upsetting that people do this however you need to know that they are not right. As far as the depression i was in the same boat, hiding it from everyone. Eventually after getting some help, I started doing things that made me happy and working towards goals to keep my mind occupied on different things. Sending good thoughts you way :-)
@creativeCar6208 thank u so much :') ♡♡
I haven't told anyone that even though I don't self harm anymore, the scars still bother me every day that I see them.
I don't have the emotional capacity to love my family. It requires more emotion than I can feel. I don't usually feel any emotions at all. It's not like I don't like them; I don't feel anything at all towards them.
It's so frustrating because today my maternal unit put all the weight of the world on me making a post on Facebook about Father's Day (even though my dad doesn't have Facebook). I told her I didn't know how to write how I feel — no way was I telling her the real reason was that I don't feel, especally not after her reaction to not being able to write about "my" feelings, which was basically calling me a disappointment. Not that I thought for a moment I was anything else, though...
@thelonesomerider
There's not really any point in telling others, especially family, that you don't feel. It's just like describing colours to the blind - impossible. It is said that it is not that human cannot feel emotions - it's more like locking them in a cage or discarding them. After all it's better to not feel at all that to feel only pain. Personally, I don't know. It's probably because I'm hollow myself. Some time ago, however, for almost a year I felt something, some kind of passion and enthusiasm I didn't know before. Now I don't feel anything again, but mentioned experience gives some hope that it will come. And if it happened to me, it can happen to you too. Maybe it will get better. Still, it's hard. Being a disappointment, I mean. Not being able to see them at all, to see the point in all these things they do and tell. As they say, having ice, not blood, in your veins.
I'm sure, however, that one day it will get better. Always does, in the end. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but one day - it will. My being tells me that there is no point in hoping that - hope, after all, is just giving up on things you could change - but what is left, if not hope? About Facebook - it can be a good idea to copy and paste text from the Net next time. There is so much rubbish after all that you'll find almost everything.
@thelonesomerider I basically feel the same way. I can try and try to look for that part of me that has feelings for my family, but I can't find it.
@thelonesomerider I'm the same way! I have such a hard time feeling feelings toward my family... Or wanting to be around them. I think it's because of our lack of relationship in the past with me... Now that they want to be... I just don't have the desire and then I'm the bad person for not wanting to be around them
I feel directly responsible for my mothers stroke. I wasn't paying close enough attention and she fell, I was not able to break her fall and she suffered major head trauma. Subsequently she experienced a stroke which led to her rapid demise.
@Davee247 hey there. I know you must be feeling very bad about it. In my culture they say everyone is born with their end time fixed, and there is nothing anyone can do about it. I ve lost a parent too, i feel your grief. Hang in there. She's in a better place. Hugs.
That I love socialising when I have the energy yes but that I often don't know what to do in some situations and that I , esp when my close friends are unavailable, fall back on relying on my characters in my head to guide me and encourage me to keep going and to cheer me up - I didn't have friends that I had that close emotional relationship with so I invented some and ditto for romantic relationships and while I have had good friends and partners come in and out of my life, these characters are still there and still what I rely on most of the time and everyone thinks I am independent and have got it together.
One thing i have never told to anyone is " i want experience all jobs all major but i dont know what exactly want
