One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}

One thing I have never told anyone is....I'm a (secret) millionaire

My cousin raped me multiple times between 5-11

I think about not being here at least every single day

That I am extremely confused between who is "the right one for me", and that I wish I knew for sure whether I really do even want to be in a serious relationship right now and get married at (or by 25) or not... And that life right now just seems so big, that I feel extremely small and unprepared to make these decisions right now...

I have really bad anxiety and I freak out over the smallest things.

I have a hidden noose in my closet ready for when I finally give up for good

That I can't cry till people push me to the limit. I make people hate me on purpose so I can let go of my stress, I fight with my sister so she can make me hate myself so much I can let it all go.

Though I'm always surrounded with people ,I always feel lonely.

Is that I feel so lonely inside and I can't take much BS anymore some things get to me but I gotta be strong which I am at times

@Laura that even after all the support my friends try to give me, I'm still stuck in the dark, constantly feeling left out and never having a place anywhere.