One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}

I'm more empathetic than people think. Seeing people cry or hearing people talk about suicide is tough for me and it's hard for me not to internalize it when I am emotionally stable let alone vulnerable...

I quite like leaving the door open when im on the toilet. I cant think of anything more meaningful to add right now. X

Just how hard it is to go through each day and never let anyone know just how you are really feeling on the inside. some days I feel I could get an Academy award for my performance, on the outside all looks well but on the inside it's a war.

Love isn't what it seems to be

I fear failing my children more than anything else in this world!😭It' tears me up inside every day.

I wished I never see my parents in my life. but I know I should thankful for what I had, whether its bad. I dont like shes around. I dont like to know that I have parents thats not embracing my existence at all.

Never told anyone that I wanna run from this life so bad.. or at least going far away, changing my looks. my identity, and starting new life.

My current foster mom gets mad at me because I talk too much... Like really mad... Like... I'm in the process of being transferred right now, so I'm under a lot of stress, so my confession is that I've literally started talking to myself in a mirror. And last night I realized how absolutely insane it is that I get pleasure from that because of how little I'm allowed to talk at home, and how often I get called annoying for talking too much about random stuff at school. Is that stupid? Yeah. Do I still do it? Yeah. ._.

I have some kind of twisted mania in my mind where I revel in all kinds of self destructive behaviour and sometimes I have the craziest thoughts, sometimes I feel utterly out of control like I'm just watching myself, vaguely interested. I'm curious to see how close to the boundaries I can go without falling too far like its a game I'm hooked on and it's sick, and then there are other times when that side of me seems completely alien and it's weird to me that I ever feel like that...recently I have been wishing I could self harm more how I used to because it helped me not feel so bad but now I feel more hopeless because I haven't really got ways to cope 😣

how often ive contemplated suicide. had some pretty vivid thoughts on how i would carry it out

The Da Vinci Code +