One thing on my mind right now is......

Getting my laundry done so I can go home and cook supper

Therapy tomorrow, and how long can I mourn for dreams that don't come true

Whether or not I'll be able to sleep tonight.

Why would my parents talk behind my back? Especially, my mother, I trusted her! And when it's my dreams to move to Alaska, it really sucks!

..how depressed I am right now.

@Laura

I am worried about my friends wellbeing.

Right now I have so much on my mind. I'm spiriling out of control and losing my grip. I do not do well with change and I need to leave my current therapist because I can't stand to look at her. I did finally contact a new one and set up a meeting this Saturday coming up. My anxiety is high not only because of change but also starting over. I have a long history of mental illness plus the last 2 years I've lost myself. My father died, along with several other deaths and losses. I've never been as bad and low as I do now. I believe I should go to the hospital, as suggested by a few people but that terrifies me!

On top of all of this I have to tell my current therapist that I am leaving and explain why. This makes me uncomfortable. I don't know how to bring it up or what to say without being flat out rude.

I'm so scared, confused, alone, and drowning in emotions.

Exam fear :( I'm stressed

I'm thinking a lot about courage. I've been told I've been courageous plenty of times, and yet most of the time I feel like the exact opposite. But I know that when anyone has the ability to seek help for their mental illness, they are courageous. It is not easy, but it is so worth it. And I'm going to need an ounce of it, at the very least, to finally reach out for help this week.

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