Today I am feeling vulnerable because I've come to the realization that I hardly have any friends. That I feel alone and depressed and uncertain and insignificant and invisible or ignored by the people I care about. That the people I considered friends simply put up with me. I also have this nagging feeling that I'm going to die soon and there's nothing I can do about it.
Feeling vulnerable cus I have no idea how to trust myself. I want to scream. Want to punch something. but there is no place for it.
I want to go outside to talk to people and to feel again. I've been staying home 3 days straight. I don't feel like contacting my friends cus there is no one I could really trust and talk things out. Any suggestions? (not native English speaker, sorry for bad English)
I let someone into my life and let down the walls I usually have up to protect myself.....then she seriously violated the trust I gave her.
I feel vulnerable because it seems like nobody around me understands what I'm going through . I'm always sad and scared . It seems like I'm drowning all the time . I have a few friends , but I'm afraid they'll get tired of me being like this .
@Curiosity18v. Sorry that you feel like that. This is really a hard time of the year for me. I am using every holiday something going wrong. My dad was a drug addict, he always ended up in jail this time of year. My mom and brother had bipolar and I was their punching bag. I guess I was an easy target. I ended up in an abusive relationship. If the time of year entailed to be happy, he had to put a stop to it to be the center of attention. So use to the feeling I don't count, that's it is hard to enjoy the first year I do. I have wonderful friends an amazing fiance and two gorgeous kids, but yet I feel numb. I am so sorry, but I get it. Unfortunately, I feel in my life, nor would understand not counting feeling.
@kindTriangle8297
hey, I read your message. Sounds like you've been through a lot . Thank you for replying . It feels good to know that someone took the time to hear my silent screams . I Hope you're doing well.
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I havent pray regularly yet again. And feeling so enough for being stuck because of my conflict with my mentor. That I bottle down from clarifying it. I really need that bcz I cant function properly as myself. I was so needing her approval which is bad but it is still so real I really need his approval since she is so important person these whole days. I hope I can reconcile myself and her from that become better. Amen. Amen. Amen
Cuz it sucks 2 B me 🙃
I can't seem to express how I feel to people. Whenever I try to reach out, I either get scared that they would look at me weird and make me feel worse about myself or they just won't do anything. I've experienced both in the past before and I know not everyone is like that but it still goes through my mind when I want to talk about how I feel.
I have to once again put on a fake persona in order to work a job and appear like a fully functioning adult.
@PacificNorthWest stay strong, I feel you.
@selfdisciplinedShip6373 this is a constant thing for me! I don
... because I am lost within my feelings and I do not know how to deal with it.
