all of my insecurities have been put out in the open, probably for the better, but I feel like it's for the worse.
@CyanKitten I'm sorry for what you're going through. Maybe you feel it's for the worst because you didn't think you were ready. But, in life we're never truly ready for something. It takes a little nudge or s huge push to get to where you need. This is a new way to face your emotions, and I believe you will grow from this.
I keep having negative thoughts about stuff that happened in the past and im ashamed of how i reacted. I just feel weak and terrible and sick. Its all my fault and i can't get over it and i can't forget and i can't just swallow my feelings like a normal person, i actually have to feel things and it sucks
@Mushie I'm sorry you have to go through this. But, I think that in a way it's better that you can't swallow your feelings. I've been swallowing mine for yeeeears and it's gotten me into a lot of trouble. I wish I could face my emotionslike you.
However, out of all the posts I've seen, you are the one I can relate to the most. I've been there, and probably still am. But, I learned that we can't change what we've done, and sometimes we shouldn't want to because what we did reflects who we are. If you don't like that, then you should look into yourself and see what you wish you could improve. You're in a tough spot, but I know you can get yourself out. You must grow from this and try to fix it, instead of letting it consume you. I hope everything gets better for you
i don't know anybody like me and the past keeps tormenting me with what i didnt do and couldnt do
and im tired of always having the worst triggers because i am poor and alone
life is one thing a suckfest of unfairness
and no therapy pills or words has ever healed my ptsd
god is cruel and so are most ppl
@howlingwolf7 I'm sorry life hasn't treated you the way you deserve, and I wish I knew how to heal you. But, sometimes we're the ones who can help ourselves the most. It sucks and it's hard because even I have been unable to put that into action, but it's true. If you can, I believe you should look for help in those closest to you- if not for help then for simple support. I'm sorry all I could offer you were words, but I hope they're enough to let you know you're not alone. I know things will get better, I just hope it's soon.
@howlingwolf7
My past haunts me more than the words people say at me about it... I really do feel terrible but I know its not my fault and I was stupid and young with no protection but I cant help but feel disgusting
I'm weak and I've never been capable to confront my problems. So I have issues from all the years I built everything up. I'm alone and a mess
@Cake28 same here - have been weak so many times that I'm only think I will betray myself again this time. I'm trying to fix up my problems, but it's so hard to even trust myself. Seems, it's hopeless to start... So pathetic... Seeing everyone else around me being able to get successful in that aspect.
@PennyUA Exactly. Everything in life is just wrong and I dont know how to deal.
I'm sorry you're going through slmething similar, I hope things get better for you
@Cake28 as it said success is not when you don't fall so many times. it is when you stand up one time more then that. So... Let's stand up and try again. (few cups of coffee and energy music helped a bit)
I have no idea how to pick myself up and start fresh.
My parents fight, and when they don't get their way they turn it on me.
I need to wait 4 more months to proceed with divorce.. due to the status for my adopted son.. need to settle his adoption first.. if not, might lose him.. 😢
I keep on turning over in bed wishing I had someone to cuddle with.
Boyfriend don't pay me the attention I want
Today, I feel vulnerable because I told a guy I thought he was cute, but I never got a reply back.
