Today I am feeling vulnerable because....[finish this sentence]

I instantly feel depression, but I am not sure why.

My ex who's gone to another country (that's why he is ex) just told me that our communication in general is meaningless without sex (which we obviously don't have anymore). 'We can share funny pics' he said when I suggested to try and find how we could keep in touch. The point is that we had wonderful relationship and didn't fight, he's just had to leave. Now I feel so miserable and humiliated as I am limited with just a piece of meat by the man I love. I've been a blind idiot.

A friend has manipulated me and I am very unhappy how she has used me.

Its a public holiday on Monday here in the UK. Everyone seems to have someone with them. It makes me feel like a saddo singleton.

I did sabotage myself this week with my job, and didn't finish what I should have been. My boss asked me this morning about report, and I had to lie. I hate myself for doing this with my own need. I will feel lack of money if I don't finish or boss will amend me, and my reputation will suffer too. Even with that pretty much unwanted consequences I still decline to do the job.

Everything us falling apart

I'm going far away from everyone and everything I know

I feel lonely. Its really humid and not very nice to do anything. I have been out for coffee and shopping and also a walk but feel a bit lost now.

Again I let my ex to hurt me. He texted smth nice, I replied politely and then he said rude thing. I feel so stupid as I trusted him again. I'm sooooooo vulnerable because it really hurts and I didn't deserve this!!!!!

I feel tired and scared.