Because I'm sick with a cold and I have so much planned for this week that I need to do.
Im missing my chrildren and grandkids. They are not in my life today due to a lot of family issues such as abuse. Gratefully my kids n grandkids were not abused. Its a terribly long story. Sad too but I can only wait for the kids to learn, to see things as they truly are. They have been manipulated, lied to, and bribed by the king of deceivers!
I know this sounds a little like Im blaming others for everything. I promise thats not the case here. I dont like to admit when I wrong but I've learned if I do not, I will never get it right. Thats what is most important to me. Some day I will get things done correctly!
My therapist tell me to wait they will call, come by, and thats when I swollow my pride let the past go. I do feel hurt by my kids "but its not thier fault." I will let the past go and be there whenever they do come back. I can help them but not do everything and let them live thier lives and let them fall sometimes to learn to do it correctly.
I do understand but I cant explain my loneliness, my sadness. My desire to know thier all ok. I just want to say I love them because I always tell them I love them!
Each one of them are living thier own struggles.. its hard to watch them stuggle sometimes.... I just wanna save them from this terrible world. All the terrible things people do to one another. Its so sad! Crazy!
I guess Im just rambling on and on.
Time couldnt go any slower! Its been a year now for the youngest. I feel like death all day every day! ! !
I'm physically tired...
I am vulnerable today because I have to see him...
two listeners were dismissive yesterday
@brunettebabe676 aw man, its the worst!
My new bosses have taken the love and passion I had for my job and turned it into a money maker. We're no longer a family we are labour that can be cut. We are shortcuts that can be taken.
We are no longer the appreciated employees we are the dirt on there shoe that the "company" can replace because we are all now expendable....
I finally have to admit to myself that I feel lonely and dont have anyone to talk to about it. I feel left out and Id never thought it would happen (sort of). Now it has and Ive never felt so stuck before
I have recently started my anxiety tablets., it take a few weeks for them to work and today is definitely a down day on them. Going out, getting up etc is a struggle. Here's to better ones!
@jer0 there will be better ones. You are not alone with this I am there in a different part of the world on my phone searching and seeing so many people feel exactly the same as you and me
I truly don't think I'm in love with my partner yet they claim to love me. Maybe I really am cold as my ex accused me and that scares me.
@MercyKnight sometimes when you've been hurt in the past it can toughen you up! Don't be so hard on yourself it can take a lot to trust someone with your heart again ❤️
I am alone today
@Nans17 Im also alone. And scared what kind of decisions to make about my future...
@TheEEgirl thanks for replying its good to know that even though i am alone ... i am not the only one going through this . I understand fully what you are feeling about decisions for future ...
