Attend memorial service for a volunteer who died in a car accident. I miss her presence.

today i am feeling vulnerable because i am realizing how isolated i am from other people. i had my phone stolen earlier this week so i haven't been able to call my aunties and i usually talk to them every other day or so. i miss hearing another peson's voice and feel very far away from everyone i care about.

I'm feeling vulnerable right at this very moment because I'm hungry and it's waaay past my bedtime.

I feel the need to socialize and there isn't anybody i can hang out with atm...

I don't know if someone I have strong feelings for has them for me. He says he does. And we're a sexual minority within minority, a match hard to find, he had his real first time with me and we click on so many levels it's unimaginable.

He's not good with online communication apparently, but I just feel he's loosing interest and I can't understand why. He's not seeing anyone else for sure. Maybe I'm too emotional for him? Maybe it all developed too quickly? Maybe I let him know I'm really into him too early?

I am nervous.

I miss my son.

With my mental health struggles he hasn't lived with my for almost 5 years now. Last year I moved away. I didn't see him much when I was close but mentally I'm struggling so hard. I got to video chat with him today though, it made me happy but then sad. I miss him so much.

I know I am not at my best...

I felt vulnerable because I had tried to help someone online who I had thought was a friend who started cyber bullying me on the support group. Or when I came here in the depression support chat had told me that I was the problem and had told me she wasn't getting involved in drama.

I'm feeling vulnerable because I'm pretty sure I'm a lesbian and its scaring me