I'm open to being judged on failed expectations.
Because my back has been hurting for two weeks.
Everything is slowly falling apart and nothing I can do can stop it
I wake up every day and panic because there's no one else on the other end of the line. I'm stripping myself bare and giving my full self and I'm scared that when I leave I won't have a home to come back to. I'm scared there will be a no return sign on the door. I'm scared there will be more than one body at home and neither will be welcoming. I'm scared it'll be torn down with a relocation sign with no address. I'm just wanna go back home. I'm afraid that smile is fake when those hugs are too light. I'm afraid that forever will end because that ring isn't anymore on her finger. And I just wish i could say I love you without it feeling like I'm doing something wrong. And I wish i could hear i love you without it sounding like a lie
@Gentlydrowing, I
A girl from college said a lot of hurtful things to me yesterday and it's made the little self-esteem that I had crumble.
I know that if he would try to come back, I would let him
My will to live is decreasing every day since I'm 8 years old; I'm still young I'm 16 now but I'm scared of the future. I know I have potential and that I'm a good person and that many people loves me but... I can't find a good reason to still alive. My family is fighting 24/7 and they seems to not care at all about my and my sister's mental health. I feel powerless all the time because I feel like there is nothing I can do to change anything.
@Yamili be strong don
@Yamili let yourself process without those family members. Concentrate on you and your sisters well being. You two are most important. Others can wait. You are special, never forget that ❤
My cousin graduated from marine boot camp and I graduated from college, but my family seems to care more about him finishing boot camp then me graduating. I feel absolutely worthless and I don't know how much more I can take of this. I should be proud of myself, but I'm not. Instead I want to climb into a hole and cry myself to sleep. Sorry if I sound selfish or narcissistic, but I've been working on my bachelors for almost 13 years because I developed cancer, lost my job due to my cancer, and other financial strains. I just want someone to say I'm so proud of you! But I don't, so I sit here crying to myself.
I have been pushing myself to make more friends lately, but my intentions worry me. I want my intentions to be pure and filled with nothing but good thoughts but Im afraid that Im falling back into this horrible cycle where I hope that those people are able to fill up the void in me. That people will like this real me, which is nothing but a bad excuse to be an irresponsible friend. Im an extremely awkward person and Im really frustrated about it.
I visited a new place and there is a new person staying in my apt for a few days (My roomies friend). I'm proud of myself for not people pleasing as much as I thought I would.
