... Because I can't care for myself properly.
I'm on my own and hate it being left alone in my house and head if you know what I mean xxxx
Today I am feeling vulnerable because I don't think I know true healthy love and my boyfriend just realized my internal corruption and damage.
I am letting anxiety and depression ruin my life
I smoke a lot, I'm afraid to join in society, i'm the dumb one at school because i don't want to study. I don't have any will
Because my boyfriend of 15 years grandmother that lives with us died and so far the only person I've had to support or talk to me outside of the house has been funeral homes and hospis. I litterly seemed to lose anyone who would care about me proof shows now as I struggle alone to cope
Today
I realized i m all alone and helpless in a strange country for a wrong man.
l have to finish things but l dont want to finish or afraid to start to be honest.
l dont want to finish my work it too much .l want to finish the work but l feel l can't my brain have alot of thought l feel tired to think that l have to much to finish the work .
I had a panic attack this morning. My depression and anxiety are getting worse over time no matter what I do. I can't even go to work anymore, the one thing that pulled me through life.