I have depression.
No one really seems to want me around. I don't even want to be around me.
I'm having lots of pannick attacks, I just fought with my brother, I'm sadder today than the whole month. I just feel like drowning and if anything bad happen today I'll probably have a breakdown.
@Heartly04
I feel the same and I hear you xo
I am mad at my friends and want to tell them, but I'm afraid they will get mad or leave me.
I am going to see a college football game tonight, and there will be alot of drinking/tailgating before the game. I'm tempted not to arrive early so I can be sober for the game. Plus a long weekend is coming up and I am single with few prospects for any kind of meaningful relationship with anyone.
I want to tell a friend I like him but my anxiety keeps telling me that he doesn't like me and that it would never work out. And that if I did he would say no and stop being my friend
I'm surrounded by people who I don't know
Because I never feel sure about if people really like me or just pretend to.
Because I am missing him.
@Cat524 I know the feeling. It's kinda a weird feeling to miss someone, because unless you get to see them again, then I'm not quite sure what to do with the feeling - Except for enduring ofc
@simplynaja. It's not just a weird feeling. For me, it's a really sad feeling. He is the person I love and he decided to cut me out from his life. It's a hurtful, sad, and unbearable feelin. And the sad part is I can't stop thinking about him. I don't know if i will ever see him again. I am enduring the sadness and feel like I am gonna lose control every minute.... But a strong and mature person suppose to be able to bear pain and live with it...
@Cat524 that's pretty much exactly how I feel. Caring so much about someone who doesn't want me to & who doesn't need me the same way I need him to be truly happy is such a hard thing to deal with - I want him to miss me, but I know that he isn't & it's like everywhere I go there's things that remind me of him, & the things we used to share - but we will get through this! & I'm certain that all of this gained experience will make us stronger down the road. I wish you all the best - you're not (!) alone ♥
There is so much that has to be done and I can't help thinking how my depressed internet friend has disappeared over a month ago.
