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Priscella
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PathStep 77 Compassion hearts6,144 Forum posts170 Forum upvotes809 Current upvotes809 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2026 Member sinceJuly 31, 2020
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Lost, found, and becoming. A little magic, a lot of healing 🦋🪽



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28th birthday
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Last post
 November 27th, 2025
...See more Today is my birthday and I been no contact with my abusive narcissistic ex for 25 days. It’s a struggle but I’m doing it. Going with my mom and bro to a beach cottage for the night for my bday! Gonna pick up a book so I can read on the beach ! To a new version of me who doesn’t let people treat me like *** and not me falling for the hope of someone :/
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Lett abusive ex. Again.
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 October 25th, 2025
...See more He admitted he was narcissist still hit me and emotionally abused me. It’s so messed up I move states and have no money I left my job for him. I’m so sad because I miss him? It’s so messed up I know but he already followed woman and I need to let go. It’s just so hard. I can use some support rn please.
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Softly healing & slowly rebuilding 💭
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 July 23rd, 2025
...See more Hey everyone 💛 I just wanted to check in with a little life update. Lately, I’ve been slowly creating a new routine for myself — one that feels gentle, real, and mine. 🧠 I’m still going to therapy and working through a lot, but I show up for it. Even on the hard days. 💼 I started working part-time and while it’s not always easy, it’s giving me structure and helping me feel a little more independent. 🫶 I’m learning to take care of myself — not perfectly, but intentionally. Sometimes that means a soft sweet treat out alone. Sometimes it means staying in and letting myself rest. 💻 I’m also building a creative side — sharing my story through little blog posts and social media, hoping one day it turns into something sustainable. I’m not “healed” and I still have hard moments — but I don’t feel stuck like I used to. I’m moving forward. Slowly, quietly, and in my own way. If you’re going through it too, I see you. Healing doesn’t have to be loud or fast to be real. 🤍 Feel free to share where you’re at too. Let’s remind each other that progress is personal, not perfect.
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Life update 🫢
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Last post
 July 9th, 2025
...See more Hey friends 💛 just wanted to share a quick update… Life’s been a lot lately. I just officially started a new job as an Online Grocery Picker — which has been a big step for me after years of healing from a toxic, abusive relationship. I’ve been walking over 3,000 steps a day, learning how to manage my anxiety at work, and trying to build a stable routine again. Even had a random moment where my Uber got hit after work 😅 (don’t worry, I’m okay). I’ve been setting boundaries, deleting old messages from people who don’t respect my growth, and showing up for myself more than ever. It’s not always easy. My body’s sore. My heart’s still healing. But I’m proud of how far I’ve come — and how I’m handling things. If you’re also trying to rebuild your life after trauma or starting over in any way… I see you. You’re not alone. We’ve got this, one day at a time. 🌱
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The end?
7 Cups Online Therapy / by Priscella
Last post
 July 7th, 2025
...See more I’ve been in an on-and-off cycle with my ex for years, always holding onto the hope that this time would be different. I really thought we were doing better—but things spiraled again, and now I finally blocked him. And even though I know it’s the right thing, it still hurts. The turning point was something small but revealing: I played two games while waiting for him to finish his match. I got bored and tired, so I logged off. Later, when I asked if he wanted to play, he got angry and said, “If you loved me, you would’ve played with me.” That broke me a little—because I did love him, I just didn’t want to abandon myself anymore. Then he shifted the whole thing into religion—telling me I’m not on the right path and that he’s disappointed he couldn’t “lead” me spiritually. Meanwhile, he refuses to get help for himself, won’t go to therapy, doesn’t believe in medication, and hasn’t tried to heal. It feels like he’s using religion as a shield to avoid accountability. The hardest part? I just got offered a job—something I’ve been working toward and building the courage to do. It’s a huge step for me after struggling with mental health and anxiety. My family even took me out to sushi to celebrate. And instead of being truly happy for me, my ex spiraled—telling me not to talk to guys, accusing me of things, and making me feel like I’m doing something wrong just for existing outside of him. We argued. Then I stopped responding. And then came the message: he’s moving to Oregon for a job. Suddenly, this man who “loved me so much” is gone the second I stop making him my whole world. It hurts. I’ve cried. But I’ve also celebrated. Because I can feel myself healing. Growing. Becoming more independent. Setting boundaries. Choosing peace over chaos. He couldn’t—or wouldn’t—do the work. He kept bleeding on me and blaming me for not being enough to save him. But it’s not my job to carry someone who refuses to walk. So here I am. Heart a little broken, but spirit stronger than ever. Starting this new job. Starting this new chapter. And finally, finally choosing me. Thanks for reading. 💛
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Aftermath or abuse
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Last post
 May 16th, 2025
...See more Sometimes I wonder if I made it all up. Like maybe it wasn’t that bad. Maybe I was the problem. Maybe I’m too sensitive. Maybe love just is this painful and consuming and messy and I should’ve stayed and figured it out. But then I remember: I was constantly anxious. I had to explain myself for being in a game. I had to worry if not answering fast enough would start a fight. I felt guilty for having boundaries, hobbies, thoughts. I wasn’t safe. Not emotionally. Not mentally. It was like walking on glass barefoot every day, and still being told I wasn’t doing enough. He said love meant putting him first. But what that really meant was he came before me. Every time. And somehow, I believed that was love. I didn’t leave because I stopped loving him. I left because I started disappearing. What people don’t talk about enough is how hard it is to leave someone when you’re trauma bonded. My brain literally feels rewired. I still crave him. I still replay things. I still want to reach out like maybe this time it’ll feel safe. But it never really did. The highs were addictive. The lows felt like dying. And now everything feels empty and numb, and like I’m broken or dramatic or maybe just “too much” like he used to say. I keep looking around like—Is this real? Did it really get this bad? Is my therapist seriously making safety plans with me? How the *** did I let it get this far? But the truth is, this isn’t just about him. It’s about how I learned to tie my worth to survival. To mistake control for love. To believe that if I just did everything right, I’d be safe. And now that I’m out, it feels like free falling. No peace, no high, no love. Just withdrawal. Everything is foggy and sad and unreal. But I guess I left because some tiny, buried part of me knew: This was killing me. Quietly. Daily. And I couldn’t keep disappearing just to make someone else feel secure.
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Just needing a soft space tonight
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 May 4th, 2025
...See more Hey. I’m not even sure what I’m looking for exactly, but I needed to be somewhere that feels safe. Healing feels weird lately—like I’m doing it wrong or like I’m just floating through each day hoping something shifts. I’ve been trying to do little things to ground myself, like reading instead of doom scrolling, but it’s hard to stay consistent. I miss my morning routine, and some days I just feel stuck in this loop of waiting—for a job, for clarity, for peace. I’m still in contact with my ex, and he told me he’s going to heal and work on himself—that he’ll wait for me whenever I’m ready to be back with him. And I don’t know… part of me wants to believe that, but another part is scared. I don’t want to go back and end up repeating the same painful cycle again. It’s confusing because I still care about him, but I also know I need to protect myself.
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Realizing I Might Have Mild Agoraphobia
General Support / by Priscella
Last post
 May 2nd, 2025
...See more Hey everyone, I just wanted to share something I’m processing right now. After a session with my therapist, we talked about how difficult it’s been for me to even go for a short walk by myself. I’ve always felt this intense fear and hesitation around going out alone, and now I’m learning that it might be mild agoraphobia. It’s kind of surreal. I used to think maybe I was just being lazy or overly cautious, but hearing that there’s actually a name for it—and that it’s something real people struggle with—gave me both clarity and a bit of comfort. I’ve also dealt with codependency, so it makes sense how these things can mix together and make going out feel like a huge task. I’m working on it slowly. My therapist gave me small goals like walking around my cul-de-sac. It’s safe and quiet, but still hard. But I’m proud that I will be trying these short walks tomorrow. Wish me luck.
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