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I know, this post probably won't get much attention. Perhaps its better that way.
I.. I am tired of this world and all the people. I wish I never existed in the first place (I am not suicidal, pls don't refer suicidal resources to me).
I feel neither belonged to the world, nor to God. My life is been a struggle ... And when i look back.. I see that I spent my life mostly alone.
I m sick of loneliness. Things don't get better. Its been the same for 5yrs now.. I am tired of everything. God, people, bonds.. everything has only hurted me.
I wander around in this world with fake smiles and feel abandoned. I act as if it will be fine. And I'm a strong warrior and all... But at some points ... It gets suffocating.
@SoulwithGoals
I'm sorry to hear you've been struggling for so long.. Unfortunately we all get in a rut and we suffer greatly. I hope you continue to fight through the pain.. one day soon may grace you with peace..🌲
I hope so. Thank you.
@SoulwithGoals
I can relate to it (:
Hmm. I'm sorry to know that.
@SoulwithGoals
How is life your life goin on ?
Still the same
@ SoulwithGoals I am genuinely so sorry you are feeling- and have been feeling for so long - this way. I want you to know you are important. You matter and you are loved!
Hmm. Thanks
I won’t lie to you and claim I have a solution to your pain… all I can say is you have a good ability to paint pictures with your words… you’re carrying an internal hurricane of pain in your soul that people in your life don’t understand or see… yet your words, even if just for a brief moment, pulled back the curtain on your soul’s pain and helped us see and understand the suffering you’re in… that pain you’re in hurts like *** I’m sure, yet it also created a talent in you, a talent of expression, which is your outlet to finally feel seen… I see your pain.
@skob11 its crazy to find you again😭
@SoulwithGoals The answer is in within. There's a guide of loneliness, I think it can help you a bit better if you read it seriously. Hit my message up so I'll send because I can't send it right now. Have you ever been in the crowd but you felt lonely? That was me before.
Okay. I have sent you a message.
Im sorry, I wish I could give a better reply, my mental health is just really delicate rn. Youre not alone, you have so many people on this app who are here for you and care deeply about you. I used to think things will never get better (and honestly sometimes I feel that way) but things do get better I promise. I think im just starting to heal after 8 ish years of deteriorating mental health and many more complications. Im not trying to make this about, im just trying to show you that things will get better evem if it feels like it won’t. You matter more than you know 🫶
Hey don't feel so. You are at right place.
We are there. You can connect anytime
When you’ve been lonely for so long, losing faith in everything makes complete sense. It just means your mind is exhausted from carrying it all. You don’t need to force hope today. Just know that this heavy feeling isn't who you are—it’s just fatigue talking.
I'm proud of you for coming here and reaching out, that's brave 💗
@SoulwithGoals
Hi. Are you struggling with an internal conflict you’re having trouble disclosing with those around you? If so, I may be the one to contact.
I'm not sure if that's the core of my problem. It'd possible tho
@SoulwithGoals
I'm sorry things are being hard:( I somehow understand some of these feelings maybe I feel some of them either... tight hugs for you🫂🫂🫂, I hope things get better💗, let's keep swimming, I'm rooting for you.💕❤️
