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limegreenHuman9402
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Skin color
General Support / by limegreenHuman9402
Last post
 3 days ago
...See more I'm naturally duskier than rest of my family members. All my life i have had people come up to me to suggest different kind of methods to "lighten my skin colour" My parents have a disgusted look on their face whenever they talk about my skin color. My colour had been used as a tool for mocking me countless number of times. For the longest time i have believed that the reason people don't like me or my relationships have failed is because of how i look. I am now 24, a doctor, i have also overcome a lot of obstacles but never been appreciated for same it all comes down to my look in the end. I still feel like the same teenager me sometimes whenever i look in the mirror trying to point out all my acne and hyperpigmentation and sobbing continuously. I fear things will never change.
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Lost all my confidence
General Support / by limegreenHuman9402
Last post
 September 28th
...See more My parents don't believe in me anymore they said I'll never amount to anything. They made me join med school against my wishes and now blame me for being not great in it. They're once again forcing me to give up on my dream branch for postgraduation and take the branch they feel is right and the college they feel is right. If i try to stand up for myself they start crying about how I've given them so much stress and later on I'm ridden with guilt. I'm starting to believe maybe they're right about that i will not be able to achieve anything. How will I ? No one is ever successful in the work they do half heartedly. It scares me that that if today I agree to their decision they will take more decisions for me later in the future, including who I marry, where I stay and where I work. I have lost hopes for myself today
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Lonely
General Support / by limegreenHuman9402
Last post
 July 10th
...See more I have been feeling extremely lonely since the past few months. I hate to admit this but there's actually no one left in my life whom i can call up and rant even just for a few minutes. I have had such horrible experiences whenever i have tried to share in the past and it scares me to do that again because in those times it had triggered my anxiety and it took me a long time to recover from it. A lot of my friends are very comfortable to rant to me and share to me because i have tried my best to make it a comfortable space for anyone that's around me and be respectful of their feelings at the same time. I don't do this as an expectation to be rewarded, i just do it because it seems like the right thing to do. I have become used to being the listener in a conversation always and honestly considering the situation im honestly ok with being the listener for my friends or family. The thing that bothers me so much is that i really wish i could have someone be a listener for me as well. And not just a listener but understand at the same time, be considerate and be respectful at the same time. I don't want anyone to say "I'm here for you" and when the time comes for me to open up its like I'm standing in front of a completely different person. So many times i have been told that I'm victimizing myself or they have become angry with me or tried to talk over me or laughed at me or distanced themselves from me when the saw me anxious and depressed. I have also been called weak and incapable when i started taking anti anxiety pills. I usually used to call my mom when i felt anxious but since the past few years she has been really sick and already in a lot of stress that i feel guilty to add more to it. A friend of mine always asks how are you always so calm and listen to everyone's rants, i just smile and shrug. But only on the inside i know how much i want to be able to do the same. (Sorry for such long post lol. But if you have read it till here thank you so much<3)
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Overwhelmed
General Support / by limegreenHuman9402
Last post
 March 26th
...See more Been going through a lot since the past few months. I had to restart taking my anxiety medications, went through a messy breakup after being with him for 2 years, had an argument with a very close and only friend in college, i have the most important exam of my life in 5 months and at the same time I'm doing 8 to 9hrs shifts in my work, so hardly getting any time to study or rest, seniors at my work have been rude and egoistic as always, and a guy that i liked told me that he is not ready to move forward and wants to stay just friends which broke my heart when i heard it. I hardly have any friends here in my college, there are days especially on holidays where the whole day goes by me not even speaking one word to anyone and as soon as i realise it loneliness creeps upon me and i have low mood thereafter. Everything has gotten so overwhelming and i feel blank. I'm taking all the help i know i require yet there are certain days when i just feel like nothing is ever going to get better and I feel the lowest i have ever been.
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Meditation
General Support / by limegreenHuman9402
Last post
 June 23rd, 2025
...See more After quite a long time I tried meditation today. I followed one of those guided meditation on YouTube. Unfortunately, I ended up crying the whole time. I have been feeling so anxious the last few weeks and have been very lonely as well. I don't know how much this will help or how quick or slow it will work, but I guess I have started somewhere. I hope I am able to keep this on. Also I stay in a hostel with two other people so I get no privacy to sit and do this alone everytime, but still I hope I am able to do it frequently.
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Tired....
General Support / by limegreenHuman9402
Last post
 June 13th, 2025
...See more I am not a bad person. I have never wanted anything wrong to happen for someone. I always talk nicely to people no matter how frustrated or low I am feeling that day. But there's really no value to kindness. I am always considered a liar or someone who has a lot of attitude. When I try to defend myself, they think I am talking back. This whole thing might sound like a stretch to a lot of you. But I am just sick of hearing that If I try to share my feelings then I am victimizing myself or blackmailing ppl. Where do I draw the line with all this? How many times do I have to hear this before a day comes where I break so much that I cannot pick myself back up? I try not to defend myself anymore, but my self respect doesn't let me sit quiet. But there's no point anymore.... I am not a bad person I can bet on that. I'm just too tired. I have no energy left to keep explaining to everyone. I am so sad since the past few days that everyone can notice and ask me if I'm ok. Where do I go? What do I do? How can I stop letting this affect me more? Or should I give up?
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Thankyou
General Support / by limegreenHuman9402
Last post
 May 20th, 2025
...See more I want to thank everyone here who has replied to my posts and giving me advice. Here it feels like my feelings are validated in a way they're not irl and people relate to me and vice versa. Also thanks to everyone who share here. I get to read so many different stories and it gives me so much perspective about everything as well as i get to learn so much about people. Thankyou once again. Hope you all have a great day❤️
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