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lolorye89
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hi! my name is Vinnie!

we all have our struggles, so let’s get through it together <3

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i need queer friends
Friendship Support / by lolorye89
Last post
 July 22nd
...See more i’m fourteen, do you guys know of any local areas where queers gather? lol i know it sounds kinda weird but man straight people don’t get it. i love the friends i have but it’s not the same. my only two queer friends are my ex and my girlfriend, so not the best situation. i’m surrounded by people but i feel so lonely. my brothers gay, he’s also 21, he said the library but idk. thanks
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vent, first time talking about it TW: SA
Trauma Support / by lolorye89
Last post
 June 8th
...See more please don’t read or respond to this if you are triggered by SA, please take care of yourself and make sure you’re comfortable <3 it makes my heart heavy, but i never talk about it. i was sexually assaulted multiple times by multiple people. i can’t remember how old i was each time, but it was mostly in elementary and early middle school. these events all happened years apart, ranging from 3rd grade to 7th grade. (not it order). for context, allie (fake name) has been one of my best friends since kindergarten, and i’ve gone to school with her since prek. it was kind of torture. * allie pinned me down in my room at a sleepover and pushed my legs apart and tried to kiss and touch me. i told her “wait, not right now” and went to the bathroom because i was uncomfortable. * allie pinned me down in her room at a sleepover and tried to kiss me and pull down my pants * allie had us both put on lingerie and give back rubs/tickle. She took my bra off and i told her to stop but she teased me. She tried to put her hand down my shorts but i said i felt sick and pushed her off to go to the bathroom. * at a group sleepover i played a game called “gay chicken” where you were forced to kiss someone until they “chickened out”. if you pulled away first you had to take off a piece of clothes. i ended up being completely undressed and told to do fetal position in front of a group of about seven girls. allie later gave me four hickeys on my back while i was yelling at her to stop. * i was asleep in my dads bed because my mom was out of town, and i woke up to him caressing my thigh because he thought i was my mom. he apologized profusely but i still remember it. he genuinely did not mean to. * constantly at school (grades 4-8) allie would be very s*xual and touchy even when i would tell her no, or to stop. other people would tell her to stop, but for a while i got so numb to it i would stay silent. i was scared of getting in trouble. i just graduated from 8th grade and allie and i are going to different high schools. however, all of this still really weighs on me. i feel like i need to tell someone. my parents? nothing will come from it though, and honestly i don’t want anything to. my girlfriend? i don’t want them to think of me differently. my therapist? no thank you. either way, i don’t know, but i had to say it somewhere.
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Waiting for the loss
Grief & Loss / by lolorye89
Last post
 April 2nd
...See more My great grandma is 96. she’s been declining health wise for a while, but a lot in the past few weeks. I hate saying this, but just waiting for it to happen is antagonizing. i’m watching my parents and my grandparents crumble with the weight of trying to help her, but it feels a battle not worth fighting. I know granny is ready to go because she’s told me before, and she wants to be with her husband. but with her in the hospital now it’s tearing apart her family. her children are fighting over who can take care of her better, and my mom has to hear about it all. it’s not fair for anyone, i just want it to be over. i know once she’s gone they’ll need to experience grief and all of that, but somehow that feels better than this. of course i would never want to lose someone like her because i love her so much, but i just want what’s best for her and the rest of us. i obviously cant say anything like this to anyone in my family because i’m sure it’s incredibly disrespectful, but i’m so tired.
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Gender affirming haircuts
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by lolorye89
Last post
 April 2nd
...See more I’m a teen girl, but i’m currently experimenting with pronouns. i’ve been going with she/they for a while, but i think something more fluid fits better. to help me feel comfortable with myself, i wanted to get a buzz cut. (not a spontaneous thought, ive been thinking about this for a long time, and i wouldn’t get it for a few months). i think it will help me build confidence, and express myself. however, i don’t think my parents would be very happy about it. they know i’m queer (i have a girlfriend who’s also nonbinary) and my brother is gay so they’re fine about that. my brother also goes by he/they but my parents don’t know about either of our pronouns. my dad talked about my brother’s once and he seemed judgmental so i kinda kept my thoughts to myself. this haircut is definitely a big change so i don’t know how they’ll feel. if you guys have any advice on how to talk to them about it or anything at all that would be greatly appreciated <3 also if there are any other masculine haircuts you know of that are maybe a little longer please let me know! hope you are all doing well!!
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vent.. i still feel gross
Trauma Support / by lolorye89
Last post
 October 25th, 2025
...See more tw: SA plz don’t read this if u might get triggered im a teen still, but i got sexually assaulted by one of my friends 4, 3, and 2 years ago. all by the same person, and i’m still close friends with her. for a long time i guess i just blocked it out? but today i can’t stop thinking about it. one of my friends was telling me abt how he is at a sleepover and the build up that happened to me was happening to him. so i tried to help but now i’m triggered. the thing is.. his friends listened when he said to stop. mine didn’t. and i went along with it and i hate myself so much for it. i feel so gross and nasty. i don’t want that. but now i don’t know what to do because i want to get out of my body. but i can’t. i mean i didn’t really block it out because whenever someone touches me i flinch or i feel like puking. they could pat my shoulder and i’d feel disgusting. is that.. normal? even just typing this feels so wrong. and i have told people, but nothing has happened. i have a therapist but all we talk about is homework. i’m so lost tho. am i supposed to feel gross..?
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I'm stuck in an unhealthy friendship..
Friendship Support / by lolorye89
Last post
 September 2nd, 2025
...See more TW: SA and self harm, please don't read this if u might get triggered <3 for context I'm 13 and I've been friends with Arrin for 10 years. her and I have been best friends for a really long time, but I'm starting to realize that I want out. maybe it's confusing to some people, but know that what im abt to say I've realized what it means but I still cant get out. basically, she SA'd me when we were kinda little but I didn't really realize. then we dated for a bit and during that time twice she tried (failed, but got close) to touch me, like s*xually.. honestly, it was traumatizing, but she was my only friend for a while so I didn't want to leave. now she's in my friend group, all of my classes at school, and I'm still acting like her friend. she also is physical and aggressive with me sometimes. I ask for space and she does, but she makes me feel really guilty or belittles me abt it. really I could leave but I don't kneo what to do. if sI top being her friend, every class she will be mad at me. she'd still be part of the friend group. i wouldn't escape. she's also super clingy so I really haven't been able to make any new friends, and that scares me for high school. I don't know if its worth leaving her now..  either way it's gonna mess up my mental health again. and next year I'm at a different highschool so I won't deal with it then. thx for reading anyway.. idk I guess this was just a vent..
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telling a psychiatrist
Self-Harm Recovery / by lolorye89
Last post
 August 14th, 2025
...See more I'm 13 for reference and I self harmed for about a year, but I haven't done it in 50 days, and 125 days before that (I relapsed once) but now I'm getting screened for ocd and other stuff like that, and one of the questions is about sh.. ive never told my parents about it and when I meet with the psychiatrist to go over the tests my mom has to be there.. what happens if I tell the truth about it? what will they do? I dont want to talk about it but I'll feel bad if I lie.. any advice?
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