Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
Considering therapy? Talk to a licensed therapist, wherever you are. Get started
saiheart05
3,337 M Seeking Light 1
PathStep 20 Compassion hearts78 Forum posts16 Forum upvotes26 Current upvotes26 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2024 Member sinceJuly 18, 2021
Bio
Recent forum posts
saiheart05 profile picture
I feel lonely
Trauma Support / by saiheart05
Last post
 February 6th, 2022
...See more It's probably not a big deal, but it's hard, so I wrote it here. My mother has a boyfriend, and since my room and theirs are next to each other, I can hear the sounds of their sexual activity. Every time I hear them, I feel like I'm being raped. And it makes me feel dizzy and unsure of who I am. It hurts so much.
saiheart05 profile picture
I need someone to talk to
Trauma Support / by saiheart05
Last post
 January 31st, 2022
...See more I can't tell people about it, and I can't write about it anywhere else, so I decided to write about it here. My mother has a boyfriend. She has had a number of boyfriends in the past in a short period of time, and then they broke up. When I was about eight years old, I remember hearing my mother having intercourse with her boyfriend, and it made me very anxious. From then on, I couldn't stop masturbating when I felt anxious. At the time, I didn't even know that it had a sexual meaning. I think I'm crazy. My current girlfriend's boyfriend always comes to my house on weekends. My room and theirs are next to each other, so at night I hear their sexual voices and noises, and it kills me. I am afraid of men. I don't know if it is this home environment that is causing this, but my therapist told me that what you received from your parents is also sexual abuse. I blame myself when I imagine myself being sexual or when my sexual desire increases. I feel very uncomfortable.
saiheart05 profile picture
I'm afraid of myself
Trauma Support / by saiheart05
Last post
 January 27th, 2022
...See more My emotions change quickly at night. Sometimes they are strong feelings of anger, and other times they are feelings of clinging to something, like a small child. Loneliness and sadness. There are times when I feel like I'm being driven by greed, which I can't control. I don't even know where the feeling is coming from. I'm afraid of people, and I'm afraid of myself. Sometimes I don't know what kind of person I am. At times like this, I feel sad because I want to be next to someone, but there is no one.
saiheart05 profile picture
Stutter
Anxiety Support / by saiheart05
Last post
 December 20th, 2021
...See more Today was especially frustrating because my anxiety made my stuttering worse and I felt a lot of frustration. I always wish I could say what I want to say.
saiheart05 profile picture
My story
Trauma Support / by saiheart05
Last post
 October 18th, 2021
...See more Yesterday, my mother was in a bad mood. She and I don't get along well. I'm sensitive to the slightest difference in moods and moods. I sensed the mood and almost started hyperventilating. I also have an anxiety disorder, so it was even more difficult for me and I cried all the time. I wrote this here to share my story.
saiheart05 profile picture
I'm scared
Trauma Support / by saiheart05
Last post
 September 27th, 2021
...See more I get really scared when I have flashbacks. I can't stop crying and my body shakes. I don't get along well with my mother, and just hearing their voices scares me. Now I can't stand that scary feeling, so I'm writing here.
Search more from @saiheart05
Considering Therapy?
Talk to an expert therapist
Badges & Awards
21 total badges
Hand Shake Linked Quintet Super Active Chief Chat Honest Voice Strong Start Milestone Reconnect First Post Reaching out Helping out Appreciated Voice Contributor First Compassion Helpful heart Bundled Meet & Greet Teammate Forum Friend Strong Bond I
Report an issue
Talk to a licensed therapist Wherever you are, whenever you need support. Get matched
Considering therapy? Talk to a licensed therapist, wherever you are. Get started