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tomatocultivation
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Just a silly little guy with terrible coping mechanisms

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How am I supposed to tell my mom I have more scars on my legs
Self-Harm Recovery / by tomatocultivation
Last post
 November 21st, 2023
...See more When my mom first found out about my scars she cried a lot. Since then she’s bought all sorts of things like bio oil and silicone scar gel to try and get them to fade. She was shocked when she saw a specific scar on my wrist, which was a pretty wide styro but it shrunk a lot. Although it isn’t that big, she thought it was really noticeable. The problem is, I have like over 50 scars on my legs that I haven’t told her about, and most of them are from reaching the dermis/fat, so they’re really big. I know she dislikes my scars and really hates looking at them, so how am I supposed to tell her about the scars on my legs? I can’t hide it forever. I already know she’ll probably react worse than the one she saw on my wrist, so I don’t know what to do
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Is this an okay way to take care of my self harm? Tw: self harm mentions
Self-Harm Recovery / by tomatocultivation
Last post
 September 18th, 2023
...See more After I self harm, I typically put a gauze pad on it (no cleaning up) and just sorta duct tape it down. currently i have no gauze, so I’ve been using like wet wipes/baby wipes to cover up the cuts. Than I put on compression/tight shorts to keep the wipes in place. Is this okay? I’ve heard that toilet paper can get tint pieces stuck in the cuts, is it the same for baby wipes/wet wiped?
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Can someone explain to me what happened?/Help me understand something I did
General Support / by tomatocultivation
Last post
 September 17th, 2023
...See more I did this weird thing. I don’t know why I did it but i’m confused and would like to know if anyone could help me figure out what happened/help me understand why I did this? for context i’m a teen who has troubles with self harm (i dunno if that helps with this) Today randomly at night I wore a bunch of thick clothes (t-shirts, sweaters, sweatpants, pajamas) all on top of each other. I than wrapped myself in a blanket and buried my head inside of it. It was super hot and I was sweating and super uncomfortable and I wanted to get out, but for some reason i stayed like that for a while. There was like a voice (ik it sounds cringy) that was telling me to stay a bit longer, that like I deserved the uncomfy feeling or something. It was super uncomfy and I literally drenched my sweater from the amount that I was sweating. In this position I would occasionally press the blanket against my face and hold my breath for as long as I can. I would hold my breath until I could feel myself becoming light headed and try to suffocate myself with the blanket. The whole time I was having a buncha negative thoughts towards myself and it lasted atleast 30 minutes long. anyways i know that sounds super weird but yeah could anyone help me understand what happened?
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If my physical therapist sees my self harm wounds/scars, will they tell my parents?
Self-Harm Recovery / by tomatocultivation
Last post
 August 9th, 2023
...See more I’m visiting a physical therapist tomorrow for my posture. If they somehow see my self harm wounds and scars, will they report them to my parents? I’m really scared. I’m not sure if they’ll see the wounds/scars but if they do I’m screwed because their all over my thighs, hips, and forearms.
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Really confused on why i’m doing this TW
Self-Harm Recovery / by tomatocultivation
Last post
 August 19th, 2023
...See more Trigger warning I don’t know how it happened but I hurt myself today. I don’t know why I did it, cause i’ve never done it before. It just happened. I’m just really confused. I don’t think my self harm is valid. It doesn’t feel real, it feels weird. It kinda stings. I have no idea why I did it, I think i’m just doing it randomly. I must be really stupid, I feel like what I did is really stupid cause other people have problems while i’m literally a lucky person with no reason to self harm. I’m literally happy and have no reason to self harm, but for some reason I did. I’m just repeating myself at this point. I’m just really confused. I have no reason to self harm
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Loop of self doubt (Just rambling if anyone relates to this)
Trauma Support / by tomatocultivation
Last post
 June 12th, 2023
...See more Does anyone else feel like their overreacting and that what they’ve gone through isn’t serious. Whenever I start feeling bad for myself a little voice always says that i’m over exaggerating my emotions to gain attention. Right after that I remember that it’s normal to feel self doubt. Then right after that I feel like i’m trying to overreact again by thinking that my emotions are valid (if that makes sense). just wondering
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