Self-sabotaging sucks
I’m a 39 year old woman who very recently has realized the lengths I have gone to sabotage myself from unresolved past traumas.
It’s difficult realizing the reason I am alone, my job isn’t going well, and that I have little to no direction is because of my own actions.
What a way to kick someone when they are down, huh? I so desperately want to break free of my own self-destruction, but how do you break a habit that has been all you’ve known for over three decades?
Curious if others here struggle with self-sabotage and if you’ve been able to grow and stop.
I was in my lowest depression a couple years ago, and while I am not at that place mentally, I realize I’ve never actually come out of my depression- it just looks different.
I want to live. I want to experience life. I want to find love and love myself.
And at the same time, I cannot seem to get out of my head and hide.
So I’m taking small steps. I’m on here. I’m reaching out to others.
I’ve always been a chatty person, so it’s hard to realize that through my own doing, I have no one to talk to.
I used to be able to still manage through the self-destruction, but I can’t anymore.
Happy to chat with anyone in the same boat, or a different boat. Just looking to chat with someone aside from myself for a change.
xo
I’m a 40 year old woman. I can relate to the self sabotage. I’m working on my people pleasing issues. I will put myself through the wringer for others, especially for those who have hurt me or wouldn’t do the same for me. I’m doing better. Self care helps a lot.
This!!!!!!!!
@potatoeaandproblems It sounds like you are very hard on yourself. I can definitely relate. I'm new here, so maybe I have missed other posts by you. You said you want to live and experience life, what does that look like for you? What are your future goals, and what do you like to do for fun?
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Gratitude Helps me and Volunteering. Keep volunteering for different causes until you find something you love.
It sounds like you have thousands of reasons for your actions. But the cause might be just to retain a semblance of personal control in your life. Just my 2 cents. :) Hope to connect and dig deeper!
Are you able to send me a message privately? We can connect to have a discussion:)
Hello my name is Regina I would like to communicate with you
Hey feel free to send a message maybe?
@potatoesandproblems I feel you, I'm also in the same situation I think. What I'm doing is trying as hard to keep contact with human even if doesn't last. the worst things you may do is isolating from people
Hey, do you know where this pattern is coming from?