save me please
here i am again down with my 7 year old addiction. I tried my best to get it over with faith . but now ive stopped my efforts to get out of it.. im 20 now and it all started when i was 13 . i dont know why and how i have an inclination to wards spanking of women . i keep on watching those vids and masturbtting after it . it kind of exicites me sextually . im afraid to tell it to my parents .they wont understand me . i really want to get out of it . if i keep on sinning like this i will loose my best friend ie jesuschrist . and without him imliterally nothing . only he is the person who understands me and stays with me when no one is there . but i really dont want to loose him . i really dont want to sin again . i promise my self this . and i again break it . can any one in this website help me please . i beg you . save me . i dont want to die i dont want to hurt women trust me . i am most caring and loving at all times . but when my temptaion comes . it just attacks me defeats me completely .and i just dont know what to do . its affecting my studies my exams my social life my religious life and my everything . please i beg any one here to help me .
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you can't control your desires and fixations. that's not up to you.
dealing wth your behavior is in you grasp but you will need to reckon with these powerful compulsions, not unlike addiction. Sadly, they gain power from the shame you feel.
If you can find someone to talk to, you can begin to rollback the overwhelming sense of guilt and shame trapping you.
Opening up about it is the first step