I hate anxious me so much (vent)

++ the funniest side of me is that the fact I tend try to please other people while I can't even please myself. 

@hopefulencounter I don't see any funny of this. I just see someone who loves and cares for people too much. I see someone who seeks validation from others while neglecting themself and it just makes me sad. Clearly, you care for others and that is a beautiful quality to have. But don't think you you matter too? Don't you think you are important and deserving of that love and care? I think you do. I know you deserve all the best. I believe you deserve to be happy. I believe you deserve to be a priority to others and yourself. As heartbreakingly sad as I got from reading this post, I do want to say that I am proud of you for recognizing and being aware of your feelings and what you are doing. That's a great sign and that shows me that there is hope. You can break this cycle. Things don't have to continue as they are currently. Please make yourself a priority. <3 Sending hugs your way!

It helps so much to know I’m not alone. Life is not set up for us kind empathetic people but kind people don’t want to join that game so we suffer, it’s quite a paradox. I have too much empathy having lost four significant loved ones young including my son. I try to navigate this world with a permanently broken heart which amplifies the hurt. Everyone one knows we should be kind we never know what people are going through so why are so many people mean. I think it comes down to either we stem from our hearts or ego, ego is the easy way out. Ironically the more we are enlightened the more we see the ignorance of the world. I don’t claim to be anything but I try to at least be kind and that is what helps me go on. I trust if I care there must be others who do too. 

@hopefulencounter I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. It's completely okay to seek validation — you're a good person, and you deserve ❤️ You're truly not alone in this 🤍 Sending lots of love your way 🐾💕

@hopefulencounter Hey friend. Go easy on yourself. You do matter and whether others understand that or not it's true. We don't need to worry so much. I know that is easy for us cause we actually care which is great, yet we must allow life to happen. Allow the relationships to blossom or fall away. Take a breathe and always trust that things will work out :)

To me it sounds like you are just a very emphatic person that wants other people to do well and believes in every persons best. And then sometimes reality shows you something different. It doesn't sound like there is something broken with you, but that you care deeply for other people and are very emphatetic, and I would say it is a strength, though it can also be easy to get hurt

@hopefulencounter This sounds very tiring that you care deeply for someone but in the end they disappoint you and let you down. You are on the right path to want to be free from that pain that shows how much strength you carry strong enough to want to fix this and share it.