What are you feeling. Just spill

Right now, I feel a mix of loneliness and hope. Sometimes it feels like no one really listens or understands me. I try to be kind and open, but I often get ignored or judged. It’s hard to keep going when you feel invisible. But I’m still here, still trying to find my place and someone who sees the real me.

Right now, I feel a mix of loneliness and hope. Sometimes it feels like no one really listens or understands me. I try to be kind and open, but I often get ignored or judged. It’s hard to keep going when you feel invisible. But I’m still here, still trying to find my place and someone who sees the real me.

exhausted from all my stress and never-ending issues irl. drained from ppl constantly js making me feel worse and gaslighting me so much. my brains going blank, i cant even think straight enough to express myself so yh but i wanted to try and calm down a bit by typing this i guess.

I'm personally feeling drained after some health issues were identified recently, and I'm also having to deal with familial alienation, as my biological family technically cut me off some time ago, it still hurts since I cared so deeply... but they were abusive, so it was for the best. 

As I say to myself, "My journey to healing begins with the compassion I give to myself." Healing takes time, and I'm willing to see it through regardless of who stands by my side. After all, I spend 24/7 with myself, and I'm there until the end, so I may as well take care. 😊

I’m feeling anxious and worried about a loved one’s health. I have been doing okay - on a new medication and have been really so much better. But recently this issue has crept up and even the medication doesn’t seem to help as much now.

I’m feeling anxious and worried about a loved one’s health. I have been doing okay - on a new medication and have been really so much better. But recently this issue has crept up and even the medication doesn’t seem to help as much now.

If i will talk about recently, i'm going to break it down.

Well, lately i got into a fight with my eldest sister about courses in college (yep, im going to college) and theres a scholarship that foesnt support nursing which nursing is my top 1 course that i choose, she told me to give up nursing and choose biology to get the scholarship. I told her i am satisfied with nursing, but she told my my family will have a financial problems because of me. I know about it but they both agreed i choose for my own will so i told her that i am happy with nursing and someday i will repay them for their hardwork. She doesnt believe me its like a stab in the heart. She wants me to follow her shadow but i dont want to. And when she shouted at me, i get shaken up, palpitating and cant focus on myself like iw as panicking.

Up until now, i still do soo yee hehe...

If i will talk about recently, i'm going to break it down.

Well, lately i got into a fight with my eldest sister about courses in college (yep, im going to college) and theres a scholarship that foesnt support nursing which nursing is my top 1 course that i choose, she told me to give up nursing and choose biology to get the scholarship. I told her i am satisfied with nursing, but she told my my family will have a financial problems because of me. I know about it but they both agreed i choose for my own will so i told her that i am happy with nursing and someday i will repay them for their hardwork. She doesnt believe me its like a stab in the heart. She wants me to follow her shadow but i dont want to. And when she shouted at me, i get shaken up, palpitating and cant focus on myself like iw as panicking.

Up until now, i still do soo yee hehe...