Anxiety Judgement. (what is the worst you have been told....)

That I'm Seflish B and attention seeking and that they don't care what happens to me if I do have something bad happen to me and that I should conentrate on someone else instead of being so selfish. Along with Just get over it and calm down and after a threat to leave me all alone. Was told that during one of my worst panic attacks where I felt like I could not breath and my throat felt like it was closeing. very recently.

Recently I had to do something really hard from my perspective but when I was having a panic attack my friend who had asked me what I was doing (via text) told me I was overreacting and I should calm down. The same friend has also in the pass dismissed me as someone who plays the victim to get help. Recently I got really angry when she said to me that she has problems to but she keeps them in her head where she belongs and later on when I actually had the guts to confront her about it she only said I had hurt her and blocked me on every social media she has. When she did that I got this tight feeling like I couldnt breath and my heart was racing and thumping and burst out crying for about twenty minutes.

Hospital told me I'd die alone 'cause no man would deal with it.

I told my therapist about how paranoid I am and how I always had visual and audio hallucinations of silhouettes and voices. She said its not real because nothing has happened to me.

As for the person working in a hospital shouldn't have to be told so, the best way to respond to the stigma is to respond by saying "So what is your definition of mental illness?" and, see if they can respond or not.

I try not to think about it too much as all really because it's very triggering for me. As silly as it sounds it was a pretty abusive Ex-lover of mine simply saying "Anxiety disorder" after me begging him in a panic to stop doing something that was really hurtful towards me (don't remember what it fully was though) In such a disappointed tone. Previously, I had told him of me having an anxiety disorder and him later on using that to his advantage and simply dismissing anything as such, even if it was his fault to begin with. This is a bit of a bonus but probably one of the worst things was him threating to call a Suicide hotline because I was so upset over his aggressive behavior towards me, even though at the time I was not in the least bit planning on doing anything of that matter.

I just don't feel good enough to have the things I want out of life. Like I'm always chasing after things that either aren't good for me, or are things I wasn't meant to have.

My dad called it a disease and on another occasion told me that people exggerate and come up with it for attention

I was in the hospital for emergency surgery last week and I got upset and the nurse just comes out and says "do you take medicine for your anxiety" umm first do not assume that I have it next do not say to someone with it this. She should have asked do I have anxiety then if I have told her yes then she could have asked that question and I would have said yes I do or no I do not, that is the worst that I can think of in that matter.

I ate lunch with some people at work last week and this girl and I started talking about herbal tinctures and teas for anxiety. She asked me do you struggle with anxiety or depression? And before I could even answer a guy ‘friend of mine says YES loudly. This guy was my work friend but didnt even know me that well and we certainly never had a convo about anxiety, so he was just making an assumption I guess. I was offended and felt so awkward that he decided to speak for me before I could even speak for myself (in a convo that he hadnt really been a part of from the start). I decided not to confront him and just stopped talking to him and the people hes always with. So today they avoid me at all cost it seems and dont even say hi when we cross paths so now I feel anxious that they hate me now for not talking to them for a week. Ugh. Am I being irrational for being so offended or for feeling anxious about them not liking me anymore? Idk how to feel. I just feel even more hated and alone now and dont know what to do.