Anxiety/PCOS/Mental Abuse

Hello, I have loads on my platter. My brain stays 10000mph everyday, which of course makes my anxiety x10. I was diagnosed with anxiety in 2019, but the meds my Dr gave me, gave me a deja vù feeling, so I've not been on any meds for it. But on top of everything else, I've been fighting against PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) for the last 5 years, I have trash insurance and not a single Dr around me has a clue on what they're dealing with or I'm young and I'm already a mom, so it doesn't matter. I've gone nearly 300 days without a period, so it's been a blast. I am a mother to a toddler and he's very bust and rambunctious. But I am also in a relationship with a man that's 11 years older than I am, he's had a rough story too and was diagnosed with anxiety this last year. But all of the weight of our relationship is laid upon my shoulders. Im not allowed to go to work, if I bring it up, I'm belittled because I've had a hard time keeping a job in the past, which we met when I was 19... I'm 25 now... But if I go anywhere without him he has to call me and just sit on the phone and listen and observe my background. If we fight and I try to leave he corners me or he follows me everywhere I go. I'm made out to be a bad mom all of the time. He's not his biological father, but he's cared for.him as he is... My life's messy and I made it messy, unintentionally in some parts, but very messy. My needs and wants are less than his and money is consistently thrown in my face and the fact that he has a job is thrown in my face. But yeah this is the start of what I'll share..