Wound up all the time
I feel constantly on edge and I don't know why.I don' t have a reason for it, it's like one day i just woke up sad and paranoid.And now I'm always waiting for people to point out anything and everthing I've done wrong. I feel like im waiting to be told off by my boss, waiting for my friends to realise they don't like me, waiting for people to realise that I have insulted them etc etc. I didn't used to be this way, and now i find myself struggling to sleep before work, sufferingdiarrhoea, and feeling physically sick. I don't know what to do, and im too embarrassed to bring it up to any of my friends or colleagues.
Has anything happened recently?
No, nothing. I have a stressful job but thats not a new thing, i've been there a year. But recently I just feel like im drowing all the time.
Hi there @convivialTiger54
You are not alone in this feeling. I've felt that way myself often in the last ten years or so. Have you felt this way prior to this job?
Postscript: I removed the second instance of this thread :)
Thanks for the reply. I can't really pinpoint when it started, I've never been massively outgoing, but it does seem to have really blown up recently. I've been at my job for a year and a half, and I've always had days that were worse than others, but in the past few months i feel like I just can't escape feeling almost permanently terrified :(
I know exactly how you feel, ive always been a little anxious but nothing untoward, then 18 months ago BANG, it was like an explosion, i got anxious about becominganxious, i still do. Im not a "talker" for fear of being laughed at, but things got that bad i was signed off work for 6 weeks and now i go to weekly therapy. So don't do what i did, speak to somebody before you explode.
Good advice, anxietyrob :)
I totally know what you mean. I've had to take a leaveof work because of my anxiety blow up right when I was going somewhere in my job. It sucks feeling like you have no control.
how do you deal with this? i had the same issue, iused to be fine, now im a nervous wreck, im on tablets and go to see a therapist but cant see any light at the end of this tunnel?
I wish I had a better answer for you but unfortunately I have no idea. I'm still going through it, and I'm still out of work. With my new founded free timeI'm currently doing research and working on some holistic and lifestyle changes to see if that helps along with going back on medication, both of which take time. I'm realizing that there is no quick fix to get me back to where I was. I don't know your whole story but in my case I had a similar incident happen a few years backthat was a result ofme taking on too much stressover a very short period of time. I wasn't giving myself enough time to adjust to these new levels of anxiety I was experiencing along the way and it ended byblowing up in my face. Anxiety can be your body's way of telling you that you need to slow down or step away. It's just hard knowing if what your feeling is legit or just your brain playing tricks.
Thanks for the reply, seems like we are pretty similar with similarexperience. Works full on usually for me, we moved house last year, have two kids under 7 and a 14 year old.
So life is pretty hectic, i'm in my 30s and it worries that ive got a long time left feeling this frustrated towards my anxiety. I should be care free (so to speak) but worry about the smallest things.
The medication doesnt seem to help me, (it probably does but i dontthink it does!) What meds were you on, i was on citalapram but that made my anxiety worse, 6 months of hell. I like you need to look into a lifestyle change i think,morefresh air and less stress
I totally understand you feeling frustrated with all this, anxiety is overwhelming especially when you realize this is something you're gonna have to deal with over time. I've dealt with anxiety my whole life and was officially diagnosed when I was 17 with severe anxiety and OCD. Knowing that this was something I was gonna have to deal with for the rest of my life itleft me feeling so discouraged. Thankfully I have an amazing family whose been behind me from the start.For years I was on high dosages ofProzac (specifically for the ocd and my age), xanax (as needed), and Lamictal (treats seizures). I was maxed out on the prozac and lamictal before theyreached theirtherapuetic levels and xanax makes me exhausted. I hated being so young taking so many meds and the side effects were too many to count. About a year ago I decided to stop taking them and was functioning welluntil this happened. Now that I'm 23 I have more options when it comes to meds but I'm trying to stay away from as many as I can. I'm currently just taking xanax as needed and lower doses of Lamictal but I can tell they're not at therapuetic levels so I'll probably end up on more. It's all about findingbalance. I just wish I could find mine faster lol
Medication is tricky which is why you need to have a great doctor.I have an awesomePsychiatrist who I trust completelybut you have to be careful because their job is to write you a prescription. It's up to you to decide if you're gonna take it or not. Knowledge is power so knowing what it is your taking, why you're taking it, the side effects, and how you should be responding to it is really important. From my personal experienceI don't see medication as the problem solver, and if Idid I wouldbe so disappointed, I see it as a tool to use to help cope.
Hey, thanks for replying! What was your incentive to get signed off? I don't feel yet like I need to be signed off, but also I don't feel able to explain my feelings to my doctor. I recently was at the GP with a seperate complaint, and when he asked me if i felt stressed or unwell I automatically answered no, despite wanting to launch into a story about how I'm just scared all the time...
Sorry i havent posted, ive been dealing with life sadly, but anywho, its your anxieties kicking in, is your mind continously active? Such as your mind wanders and wont stop going a billion times an hour?
I've just been told there is a visit required with work next week, its a 6 hr drive there and back or an hour flight there and back.
Ive justgone in to anxiety overload, and its not even been confirmed that its me who's going! How do we stop these feeling!
I know how you feel on that one I the same still waiting for my partner to leave to dont know why I think like that think mine could be fact I was adopted so might have fear of being abandoned
Thank you for all your replies! So glad to know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I'm not keen to go my GP so I'm trying to deal with it on my own. I'm not getting very far, but I'm intimidated by the thought of going to the doctors! Recently I've made a good friend at work so I at least have a bit of a support system there, but I know she's planning on leaving soon and I just don't want to be reliant on another person to live my day to day life?! I haven't told her that she's basically the only reason I'm surviving at work, I feel like that's too much pressure to put on one person - especially if it's someone whose just a work friend!
Never beembarrassed, you can't help what you feel. I can understand feeling anxious about tellingpeople, but this community at least isfilled with veryempathetic people here to help. I myself one dayexperienced something similar where I just woke up and felt like someone had flipped a switch and I could no longer express emotion and just viewed myself asworthless.Therapy can really help, have you tried seeing a therapist or counselor? Or if you are a littleapprehensive to the idea, have you thoughtpfmaybe going to a supportgroup or even looking for some online?
Im really unsure of whats available to me in this area, last time I was at the doctor (for something that I think is unrelated) he really made me feel like I was wasting his time for going, and now im nervous to go back. I myself work for the NHS and I am more than aware how stretched thin they are, I would be horrified to find out I was just wasting resources. Thats why I came here, hoping to find some comfort without bothering anyone - everyone here chooses to be.