people feel alien to me.
Life feels dull no matter what I do, but the worst it feels when plug in too much in front of computers, especially when mindlessly entertain with nonsensical movies which just waste my life away. I tried writing in paper a diary but it depresses the heck out of me, i cant. Apparently the computer gives me the extra push and makes me numb enough to not feel my pain, so i can focus on writing. All music kinda tends to depress me, a little bit can fool me to feel good till the point were it backfires on me. My family has always felt alien to me, especially my abuser father. I was mainly raised by movies, video games entertaining and so on, but seen now how twisted from reality they are, it does not serves me any more purpose. I guess if the closest thing i ever had to a father was a computer. And yes you might notice how my words can be a bit dramatic, probably influenced by all those movies. I heavily struggle with to be sociable, is like i live 24/7 inside my thoughts. Were I live people behave like rats flocking to be big groups without questioning much of themselves, there is many things i would love to talk about, but for now i ll keep it short. thanks for reading.
@okeyyyy hi okeeee ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ I'm sorry your struggling 😥 do you still go to the gym, at all?? Socialising is hard, especially when you don't know how too. I'm not really sure what to suggest, sorry sweetie. Is there any hobbies other than writing you like to do? Or any places you like to go, like for walks or something??
@Tinywhisper11 hei tiny, its been quite a long time, well, gym sports, swimming , weight lifting , cycling some things i like doing, i used to enjoy other things which i dont do at the moment. i started meet ups for language exchange, but at some point it gets boring, cause its always new people who say the same stupid things, i am from x and i come to x. and etc, same speech over and over again. I need to try to see some social activity i could enjoy, job or something, thanks, is nice hearing from you tiny, how are things with you ?
@okeyyyy I'm doing ok ❤ yeah I don't spend much time in chat rooms anymore, I've missed you though ❤❤ social activities. Maybe there's meet up groups in your area, like cycling, I know we have a local hiking group🤔🤔 maybe if it's a outdoor sport local group, it wouldn't get boring. Good luck, I hope you find something that you enjoy, hugs you tightly ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11 thanks, i hope so too :)
@okeyyyy
🥝🥝 sending you 🤗 🦋
@SummerKay2024 thanks :) hugs to you too kay :) 😛
@okeyyyy I know exactly what you mean. Most of the time I am thrust into social situations I resort to alcohol to cope with the feeling that I don't belong. Then I usually hate myself the next day because I feel like I just took a coward's way out and usually feel like trash. I wish I could find other ways to fit in better, but I think the people who really like me for me do so because I'm not like everyone else... My guess is you probably have the same quality. It sucks being uncomfortable, but I think being social takes practice for some people. I gotta learn to do it without the crutch. And, who's to say you got to like everyone? I'm sure there's some people you'd mutually enjoy socializing with, you just have to find them. They are few and far between for me, but they're out there.
@strublesaurusrex thanks so much for your comments, well me i dont like alcohol. For me I like to be fully conscious, so I tend to analyse people when i talk to them, and analyse myself. Good point there, I guess is about trying to meet the right kinda folks. For me what always kept me better is knowing I have the gym to keep me in spirits , so if things dont go well, I think oh well I will then go to the Gym to go and feel better. :)
@okeyyyy
Hi okeyyy \(^-^)/ me remember you in general support room a while ago!
@VictoriaLove7 hey there, how is everything going ?
@okeyyyy
It's okeyyyish hehe I rarely in chatrooms, how's you, okeyyyy? ☺
@VictoriaLove7 hei, dealing with lots of stuff but trying to go out more of my house and trying to be sociable and trying to do things to have a life, thanks for sharing :)
@okeyyyy
Going out us surely good for our health, we can relax by being outdoor & yes yes, socialize \(^-^)/
@VictoriaLove7 thanks so much, yes little by little i try to do more :) have a lovely weekend.
@okeyyyy
Feeling disconnected from people and struggling with the impact of media on your mood sounds really challenging. It seems like you're searching for ways to feel more connected and find activiteis that bring you joy🌟have you found any small thigns that help brighten your day, even momentarily?
@healingsoul4892 thanks, well lately i began to listen to music to help me cope with things especially when i dont feel well being around strangers who are not silent. So in these cases i just cover my ear with headphones and music, which i put video game music which helps, though i dont play video games anymore.
thanks and have a nice day.
@okeyyyy This sounds like a challenging thing to go through, it sounds like you feel unable to connect with people in the area where you live as their actions toward you seem illogical?
@Maslow Yes, especially after being too much in isolation, or when people act too much out of neurosis and being busy for the sake of having a fast pace life to the point of not having time for being mindful of others or themselves, and making everything fast without even a second though.
have a lovely weekend
