fracTured thoughts and motivation
Hello all. My name is Kayla and I have been living with Bipolar type 1 disorder for twelve years now, and somehow I am still surprised by it at times. Here lately I have found myself yet again dealing and coping with mixed episodes and I got to say this particular round has been brutal. I haven't experienced mixed episodes very often but during the last twelve years it has occasionally happened. I feel like my body will just rip in half when I get like this. Though the meds keep the episodes from taking me too far out there, it doesn't help much with the sensation of my skin crawling or my brain feeling like mush after being subjected to these episodes. Between the mind static and just exhaustion in general, it's been hard to put words together to form a sentence. I know better days are coming. They always do. But man I wish they'd come quicker, I just want to level out.
@KayDaLew It must be so hard to go through the feelings and sensations you described. How are you feeling today?
Hey,
I understand indeed that those periods might indeed be difficult to deal with...
(edited by LoveMyRotty)
@PieceoftheUniverse
Hello PieceoftheUniverse!
Thanks for being here to support people and to have taken time to read the post and offer your help.
We all would find a solution for people that suffer, it's an act of love so I appreciate you doing it!
But specific tips about meds need to be suggested just by specialists because it can be risky and dangerous to make any adjustment that is not guided by them.
Thank you, take care!
@KayDaLew
Hello there KayDaLew, sorry to hear that you are facing so challenging moments.
How are you lately?
Did you talk with the specialist about it? Maybe they have something specific to suggest you to cope with the mixed episodes. You can also try to find ways that work better with you. There is a thread about self-help strategies. Give it a look HERE.
It's great that you are trying your best to face the situation and that you reached out the community.
Stay Connected – The more you isolate yourself, the more you increase the risk of mood changes going unnoticed and jeopardizing your health. Lack of connection to others can also put you at risk for a depressive episode. So don’t hesitate to assemble of team of professionals to provide guidance and insight. Doctors, counselors, and others can be a part of your support system, and many people find that attending a support group for people with bipolar disorder can be invaluable. Staying engaged with friends, family, and members of your community can also play an important role in keeping you energized and providing support.
Let us know how you feel, you are not alone! 
Hey Kayla I have been diagnosed as bipolar I 11 years ago and know exactly what you mean. The up and down cycle is exhausting and hate it affecting my parents but after the most recent episode and yet again mom coming to the rescue to solveg financial problems, I am vowing to just be still and try not to do anything beyond working and being grateful for at least not losing my mind completely.
