Am I so unimportant?

Hi, I just wanted to open up here again and tell you how I feel since I don't have the friends to go up to and day "Hey can we talk? I'm not feeling so well, " so I wanted to seek comfort and advice here where I don't have the fear of people criticizing me.

So I just really have the feeling I'm the most unimportant person for everyone in my life.

I only have 2 "good" friends at the moment. I have known one of them for 3 years and the other somewhat closer for 1, but we only have been like a trio for half a year now, maybe or a bit less.

I always see them getting tausend of texts from friends,their bf, and so on.

There is always somebody who messages them, and they always have a notification on their phon.

I don't get any of that for days.

Not even from them.

It just makes me wonder if I'm that unimportant.

If I text them something, it takes up to hours until they answer me.

But they are online and on some days when, for example, my friend shows me a message from my other friend. I notice "Oh she replied at that time of hour to you. I texted her a half-hour before you, and she answered me 3 hours later."

And that's what makes me upset.

While I try to get closer to them with texting stuff like "How are you doing?" If they're sick or just random texts of what I'm doing or asking what they're doing rn on weekends.

I NEVER get a text like that from them.

Only if in school they noticed I was upset once in a lifetime they ask what happened later that day.

But nothing else.

Not even a simple "Hey, how are you?"

I mean, I understand that sometimes you don't have the time, but I always think about it like this:

No person in the world, not even the busiest person, does something every minute for 24h.

You always have situations where you don't do something even if it's just for a few minutes.

And if you don't have the time for a whole "normal" day I'll say to reply to someone it's not because you don't have time it's because you don't want to or are to lazy to.

Ofc their are different situations where this mindset isn't so accurate, but I know my friends.

They text their bf in school even tho whe aren't allowed to take out our phones the whole day. Tuesdays & Thursdays, we have a long lunch break from 2-3 hours where they have so much time and do nothing.

One of them can send me 10 tiktoks at 12pm and the other stays up often at night to play video games.

Do you get it now?

They ignore my text for hours, but their bf get a evry hour update from them.

They text each other randomly. "Hey wanna hang out." "Hay, are you ok?" "Hey what are you up to?" and so on, but I never get a text from them.

I ALWAYS have to text first.

If I don't, they wouldn't even bother to talk to me outside of school.

And I feel so stupid, especially when I texted them and been waiting for 2h maybe for them to reply, and in those hours, they sent me 5 tiktoks but don't answer my message.

And that's when I really ask myself if I'm really that unimportant?

But ofc they say stuff like that they care and I' important to them but they barely show it except sometimes in school.

And the worst thing is that they are my only friends.

I don't have anyone else, but they do. 100 of people who text them first thing in the morning party paragraphs even.

I'm practically obligated to them.

And you know it's bad when I check my phone every hour, at least if somebody texts me even tho I know that my phone will ring if I get a notification.

But I still check in the hope that I maybe didn't gear it or it didn't ring, and they do text me just wanting to talk with me.

And I hate it so much.

They can text everyone and give them 10 answers to their 10 questions immediately but can't even respond to my one question?

And then they tell me I should change my way of thinking and that they try to include me and be a "good" friend.

But it doesn't show?

Maybe from small action IN school.

But mostly not even that.

But as soon as we leave school, I am just some kind of piece of garbage you forget in the corner of your room.

Yk?

I'm just so tired of not receiving what I also give and feeling like I'm 100% not worshiped by anyone.

Does anyone have an idea what I should do?